NOTE: This is an older Guided Meditation I put together nearly 30 years ago. It’s been sitting in my inventory since then. Now I feel the urge to share it again as it speaks directly to our Times of 5D Ascension, Personal Growth and Spiritual Awakening. The God of All lives Within. No Exceptions! We are all Part of this Universal Love awakening now for All of Mankind to partake of. You only have to Trust Your Own Heart Centre to Know what is True for You. Listen! Enjoy! And please give us some feedback on how it makes you feel!

Maurice

We are here for you now, You are never alone, God inside says - To be True, Time to love you

Let Me hold you Now, I am your Friend, Love is all there is, From now unto the End

Time to Awaken, Time to feel that Pulse, Growing ever so boldly, Taking us to the House

We are here for you now, We are here at the prow, You are Safe in the Love, Time to hear our Song

Your Heart is Awakening, Building on Trust, Your goal is Strengthening, You can count on Us

Inside your Soul now, Let it be Bold now, Inside your Heart, Is where we start

Love is Awakening, Your world is Strengthening, Time to move on, You are so Strong

We are here Together, Here forever, Guarding our Souls, Reaching our Goals

The Wonder of Life is now ours, We can see right to the Stars, Our Heaven is opening its gates, Our Time to Awake

Yes You Can, Oh Yes, You Can, Be True to You Now!

NOTE: Just a reminder! I have mentioned this before, but it bears repeating. I “receive” on a regular basis through my Higher Self. To be clear, this is not Channeling, this is simply Receiving as I’ve done for over 30 years since I made the connection back in the early 90s. My Higher Self speaks to me, and through me, resulting in essays, poetry, books and music creations I’ve garnered over the years. I also journal at the end most days on whatever might concern me and receive “reflections” in turn that help make things much clearer. That’s our relationship! I initially learned, and am repeating here, that this facility is available to Any and All of us, once You Declare you are Ready. Your Heart is Your guidance to getting there. These pieces I receive, come to me as 1st drafts which I then work through, until a final product, such as this one today, is ready to be shared.

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Your Heart is at Stake! We are looking at life from the internal microscope of our Hearts. Our Hearts are the Guidance we need at times in our lives, especially times like these. They lead us into the future inexorably, because we need that focus so our ducks can again be put in a row. That’s how we rule from the inside out, when we are focused and connected to the Heart.

Our energetic territory is vast. It encompasses all of human life with only one particular viewpoint - Our Own! We dive into that dimension of living possibilities and we adhere to what is required. There are clues that surface in our sphere and help point the way. At times they may seem misleading, but coming from the Heart, that is simply not possible.

We are not ruled however, we are guided. We surface as we can that which means the most to us at any given time. Myself, as author here, have done so throughout my life and never stopped digging, not even now while in my 81st year of life. Something is cooking most every day.

I tune into my “Within,” my “Higher Sphere” as required, as urged, as subtly reminded sometimes when i need to pick up the pace and move that emerging agenda forward once more. Most recently, I have given up the pursuit of revisiting those old “father issues” for the upteenth time. I have said “No, I am done with that. I am done fixing that damage from way back then. From now on I am My Own Purpose and this is My Life!”

So onward we go, into this new balance of life where the rules are different than ever before, because We/I are no longer constrained by the past. We’ve said: “No! We are done! Let’s move on! Our life is Ours! No more catering to the Past!”

This is an important moment in everyone’s life, a “Turning the Corner” moment as many like to say. A decision! A reflection! A purpose resurrected! We may be done growing for now, because it’s time for some “doing” again, as only our Heart can dictate, elucidate and guide. So, we ask: “Where to now?”

Since we’re not “fixing” anymore, we are Free to go in any direction. What temps us? What drives us forward? What illusion on the horizon do we want to make real? That’s our new possibility now. The repair work has been done! This vehicle, which is Us, feels ready to launch. Where to?

This is a stellar position to be in. No longer constrained by the past. No longer fighting off the demons of toxic religion, among other things, and poor parenting which was my beginning. Only the wide open vistas of so many possibilities are now what appear and lie just ahead! So again: “Where to next?”

Now that’s discovery, pure and simple. Based on what? The Heart of course! Our Heart wants what it wants. It supervises our venture! It guides! It directs! It ensures that the venture is always worth it! “Yes, You can do this!” Let your Heart sing with that prospect. This is what it feels like to stand alone on top of Mount Everest after you’ve climbed to its summit; you are on top of your world now! So again: What’s next?

Since we are now moving past the healing phases of our life, and no longer repressing ourselves, we are actually free to grow, to build, to activate whatever we wish. The constraints are gone! We are unleashed, which we accomplished ourselves! And our Heart knows the way for sure because it “Sings” with every possibility that are cast on the screen ahead. It sees! It believes! It enriches!. No more supplicating! No more begging! No more looking for forgiveness before obtaining permission! We Are Free! We’ve healed what there was to heal! We have declared ourselves Free - from that self-imposed prison we were born into! Whoops! “From what you say?”

Oh yes, that self-imposed prison. Because many of us now know, and accept as I have, we made those choices from the other side, before we arrived at this planetary destination. At some level we now understand we chose those parent figures and those religious elements before incarnating. Why would Anyone, any Soul, do such a thing? Because we wanted our own special route for our growth efforts from early on, including the challenges, the wounds, and the craziness in some cases. We wanted our own special recipe to work through, so it would bring us here, to this point in time, where Freedom is the mandate we are ready choose! And because of this trek we now know, we were never victims to begin with! Why? Because we, our Soul, chose this path, and we’ve actually been in charge from the very beginning. Whoops again? No! That’s how I see it!

Why travel such a hardship route? Why those challenges, those hurts, those losses? Because to Know the way Home was necessary by Earning it, by healing all that damage we chose to partake of, so we could really understand what Freedom means, after having fully experienced it’s very opposite. This was a spectacularly Spiritual and Inspirational workout! (Inspiration: “To be filled with Spirit”) How else could we know it and appreciate it, except by being able to claim it for ourselves? We weren’t looking to just receive a Free Pass. We clearly wanted know how it would feel to stand on our own Mount Everest!

We earned our right to say “No” to the past! We worked it through! We read all the self-help books, the inspirational books, the “how-to” books! We followed all the emerging “personal growth” programs! Some would say we came here to be a part of “This Healing Generation!” We worked until we were done! And we are now finally realizing that we had earned our way to this very moment! The prize at the end is Ours! And we earned it so we could know how to appreciate it in its full majesty. That’s the gift! That was the purpose! So we could know Ourselves as Free Beings, capable of Anything!

“Well, of what?” you might ask. Why, of Authentic Living is the ready answer, from the very core of our Being. This might be a Celestially Divine event one could assert, that we secured for ourselves by having undertaken this very personal, demanding, and yes, very private journey. So now we can see ourselves as Light-workers or Way-showers, as some now assert. We’ve travelled our gamut of challenges and reached this particular pinnacle. Not to be adored or mystified! Oh no! But to be recognized and appreciated as an example of such enormous possibilities for any human to undertake, an example so we offer simple, yet very visible, inspiration to others, as we had readily received along our way!

The Autocracy of of these Current Times wants no part of this. “Stay in your lane and we’ll tell you what to do” is their selfish mandate. They want control over others, as most autocrats typically do, and most often, blindly crave. They want to keep us simple, humble and without any greater aspirations. Because they want servants. Their own unlimited and hollow insecurities actually demand it because of their fears. This is so they can presume to stand tall by crushing others as part their main delusion. But an “Emancipated” individual cannot be crushed. Free thinkers, Light-workers and Way-showers cannot be pushed aside. The’ve achieved the so-called unachievable. They’ve claimed their own Freedom after having travelled their particular Gauntlet of a very Demanding “Life Exercise” plan. Now in their Hearts, They Know!

These individuals have made their own way and they stand head and shoulders above those autocrats who presume to claim some artificial power because of their money, which always wrapped in whiny insecurities, always under the heading of “More is Never Enough.” The current POTUS is a ready example of how pathetic a career autocrat can be. Dare to try and swerve people like him and they will threaten to beat you to a pulp. Just ask Iran? Because that’s their craving, totally based on ever more visible and crushing low self-esteem, which they can never outrun! They are the whiners, the chronic victims and the perpetual bullies. They are anything but Authentic and Real. They desperately need you! You do not need them!

History’s greats like Jesus of Nazareth never submitted to these worthless power mongers. Most of these historical characters dared to express and demonstrate their freedom, coming directly from their Heart Centre as a true and valid Energy Source, as the True Impetus in their lives. Jesus said it often: “The Kingdom is Within!” He, and those like him, bowed down to no one. They dared to be brave in the face of any injustice! They called out every instance of so-called ridiculously fantastic thinking and outright lies! They kept pointing to that rhythm and future that awaits All of Us as We, in turn, start coming more directly from our own Golden Centre - The Heart!

No excuses! No blindspots! Just clear simple Energy coming the Source of All as it rises through our individual Hearts. Can you feel it friend? Can you see it within? Can you declare yourself as Ready? Then be brave, be bold and say so: “I Am Me” And that’s all that matters: “I Am Me!” “The Kingdom is Within!” Claim It! It is Yours! Your time is at hand! And your Heart knows exactly what to do. Just tune in, listen closely, and then: Just Be You!

CLOSING NOTE: To be clear, I have no problem with the conception of “God” as long as it’s an Internal Reference. It’s abuse by most religions has No Say in my life. All my assertions to God, or Source, are Internal, and that is Home for the Divine in all of us!

“ARE YOU READY?” - A musical invitation!

There is a story to be told here about lost love. Since the beginning of time such stories have been shared, with one example after another offering a new portion of insights. Now it seems we have people pushing each other, trying to claim this or that, in pursuit of ego driven goals. Before this happened, there appeared to be love enough for all. No one did without. Life was simply based on love and fuelled by it.

All were recognized and appreciated. Few could see the so-called differences in each other. Everyone had gifts they displayed and offered, then shared with each other what they thought and felt without engaging in competition or fear of retaliation.

These had no place in those times before the chaos of the current era came to be. Now, people are at each others’ throats trying to blame each other for what is going on in their lives rather than taking responsibility and owning their portion of any negative situation.

People are at odds today because we don’t seem to care about each other like we used to. Change is not so difficult to make but there must be a willingness, a choice and commitment to do so. As an example, when someone reaches out to engage a child or to pet a small animal, they are extending the wave of love. It is easy to do so with children and pets who happily receive.

What happens when people stop extending themselves upon entering the more familiar arena of competition and fear? Now it becomes a contest for affection and attention. In this scenario one has to prove his or her self-worth, lest they feel ignored and abandoned. How does it happen that we go off in that direction when the very foundation of love lies before us and within us? A helping hand, a kind gesture, a smile, an acknowledgement, a “hi, how are you,” how hard can that be?

This is a pandemic some would say that keeps people away from each other. Not so I say. It is more of a distrust in ourselves and the other that keeps us at bay. So how do we remedy this? Through self-love, of course; that is self-love and appreciation that does not discount or negate ourselves and others. We all have these same needs for appreciation, recognition and safety. Let’s recognize that.

What we experience here is a mirroring effect, where I treat myself well and do so for you also, all the while suggesting that you could do the same. That is treat yourself and others well in the sense that this is not a competition nor does it come from a need to surpass anyone. Many of us were born into traumatic situations that resulted in strong feelings of insecurity that now need healing. I know I did and spent a lifetime healing those wounds. Now it’s time to let go. That work is done. I’m read to fully accept me and that’s where my new life begins. So, let this choosing of love be a first priority now, rather than engaging in any more competition.

There’s the rub. Somewhere along our path insecurity took hold and overshadowed that simple need to acknowledge and recognize each other, to wish each other well, to give and to take, to balance out our efforts at self-determination and self-sufficiency. That’s when we believed there was a lack of love, only to find out we needed to love ourselves first of all.

We need each other. We are threads in the fabric of human society. As the term implies, we are each a part of something larger than ourselves, something that stands above and beyond the whole of our being, and that of all others. This fabric woven together, tied together, linked together is the fabric of life which includes animals, trees, bushes, foliage, the macrocosmic and the microcosmic, all cosmic forces involved. This includes ourselves of course, all tied together by the one simple thing called Love, the juice that pulls us all together and holds us in its arms. Every morning I have a walk. Along the way I greet the trees, the bushes, the birds chirping and the dozens of squirrels I see racing by. They are part of my fabric as I am of theirs.

To be clear, I am not more lovable because I can beat you at some game or task. I am lovable because I love. I extend and receive love, as I hope you do, for the integrity of the fabric which includes all. We chose this life together some do believe, but whether we did or not, we are here, and the easiest thing to do ultimately is love ourselves and one another, as differing parts of this whole called Oneness.

This fabric, of which we are a part, surrounds, envelops and includes all in its matrix. It is dominated by the energy of life, and is the force that animates us and all living creatures on Earth, including the animals, plants and microscopic forces at work in the invisible realms, regardless of whether they are available to the naked eye. Sometimes looking into these smallest of details we will be amazed by all the life forms we see. On my walks I see these tiniest of shells. What’s that about?

How can there be so much detail in all this fabric containing life? This multiplicity of life forms that gathers energy from the one Source, the cosmic force that animates all life. We, along with the infinitely smallest of detailed life come from this force. Call it God, call it Creation, or by any other name, it is the ultimate force that gives us this living, breathing apparatus we call a body that we occupy here while on this Earth and readily begin to discover what lies under foot.

This is our humble beginning. We are here to satisfy this Greater Energy whose lust for life seems to know no bounds. It repeats and duplicates itself inside every living apparatus, from the micro to the macro, and all in between. It is amazing to watch and, ultimately, stand in awe within it. This is the fabric of life, of which we are a part and of which we are witness to in its multiplicity of forms. In this context, we are the Grand Design, and this is our place in the fabric of life.

We have a Soul, the very energy that animates our bodies, which are made of earth material and which return to that primal state upon the completion of our individual turn on this plane. The soul lives on, we are told, because apparently it is Eternal. And it seems to grow with each earthly event. There are some who believe, (2/3 of the planet apparently) that it returns over and over again for more such experiences as part of the challenges it seeks because Growing is the Ultimate Destination.

Those that accept this call it Reincarnation. Most Westerners do not believe in such an idea, except for myself that is, since I have no problem with it. But that really doesn’t matter for the life you/I occupy now. What matters is that you love, and love heartily at your best. That you imbue that love into all your actions and reactions as a member of this earthly group until your time in this particular body is done. Think about it: there’s new model cars every year, why not new model bodies???

Our job, as I understand it, is to restore life through love, love of ourselves and love of the other. With love at the helm there can be no failure, only expansion and growth, which is the basis of life on earth for us as a human. And yes, we have to heal all that trauma we may have incurred before getting to this platform. But it is there waiting and I can attest to that personally.

This is our mandate, to love, and to restore love wherever necessary. How do we do this? These are challenges I am going to address in this series of reflections, each of which will tackle this subject in a unique and I hope, a profound way. We will find our way to the core of this matter so we can see ourselves in it and better appreciate the role we are here play, once all that tough stuff has been finally set aside.

The days of simple competition and one-upmanship are over. They do not work, they simply divide. What we need is to unify, to come together and realize we are all part of this same fabric that animates all life and requires each of us to participate to the fullness of our abilities. We are not separate from Life - We Are Life!

As we become unified through love, we become unstoppable in terms of creativity and accomplishment. As we grow, our fabric grows stronger and richer, and becomes more fulfilling for us all. It is a growth pattern that our Higher Self requires of us; and through which we each have our individual mandate to fulfill. Yes, to put it more simply, we each have our own individual and totally unique App, which sets the tone.

We are driven by urges to seek out and explore that which intrigues us, drawing us closer, exciting us, moving us to action. We are drawn to that which is ours to embrace and together we create a more intricate fabric each time we apply ourselves in this quest to grow. We are here to explore and expand, as our hungry nature compels us forward. This is how we complete our individual missions. Life is Yummy!

For now, let this be an introduction to what lies ahead, to what explorations we will undertake and to what dimensions we can and will investigate. This is all in the hopes of bringing us closer together as one of earth’s species, through the love which is the fuel that drives our individual and most unique purpose, that which brings joy to our lives and urges us to participate with one another. We are here to facilitate this main goal, to offer love and satisfaction for all concerned.

Ultimately, we are here to be happy and love is our vehicle to accomplish this. So let’s explore further as we work our way through this process with love as our guide. Given all of the above, how else would we dare to proceed? Here’s a simple start: Hug one of your Friends and feel that rush of just giving. Then be advised: If you run into me and mention this article - I Will Hug You!

We have a story to tell of mixed messages, especially when people are younger, and they know not what’s going on. They get messages from Source, from their Environment and from their Family and Siblings. Family matters in particular abound, and occupy most observances / felt experiences, made at that time.

People pour in and out of their lives. It’s hard to keep track. Like babies looking everywhere, trying to uncover what’s going on around them. All they can do is see and feel, and absorb. Of course! That’s what they do. Life is absorption at this stage. Get it all in there and see if it fits somehow. No questions, just absorptions, until we/they can’t contain anymore because now they are full.

“Of what” you might ask? Through their absorptions of feelings, realities, novelties, images and more. Life has given them a big dish to consume and they are doing so. It’s just a matter of time before they’ve consumed all of what lies before them. And soon, yes, they are full. “No more please, I’m done for now - No more!”

That’s our beginning in this life. We absorb, we consume, whatever our environment offers. We don’t know anything else. We’re in this physical body and this is our job. At some point we grow out of it, this absorption phase, and we get on with who we are - with who we think we are. But that phase passes quickly, as we realize, we have come for a purpose and it is rising up within us.

So it’s not a game after all. It’s a process! A reception of the first draft of been human. Now we’re on to other things. “Do I have purpose?” We wonder? Something inside says “Yes, you do have purpose.” “And it’s now time to realize that purpose.” “Are You Ready?”

Stunned, bewildered, set back, we answer “Yes, I am ready!” And the material starts flooding in. We are inundated with facts, figures, images, feelings, all close to the Heart, to our Soul, to our sense of Self, to our sense of belonging. And now we are alive with all this information and awareness. We are on fire with new discoveries, about ourselves, about our lives, and yes, about our Purpose.

“Oh yes,” we remember “I have purpose.” “So, what is it?” And the energy flows and activates the Heart, and the Heart says “Pause” for a moment, “Breathe” and then “Let yourself absorb.” “You have purpose and here it comes!”

We open our Hearts at this moment and it comes pouring through. Who and what we are! Why we are here! Our gifts! Our purpose! All unravelling, revealing itself to us, like some comic relief, like some escapade written on a stone, in a form only we can understand. Because it is being delivered to us personally, just as I am receiving this very instruction to pass on here.

The purpose is being laid out before me/us. Our Hearts know! They recognize the message. We are being Activated! It’s time to come on board, to receive these timely messages, to let go of the past, and embrace this emerging future. Everything we’ve been through has prepared us for this.

“Are You Ready?” - is now the question, repeating itself from within. “Are You Ready?” And we reply, and our Heart fills to bursting, because now we are receiving what is uniquely ours, what we’ve prepared for all of our lives, what this moment in time was set to deliver. We just had to be ready. This was Job One. Now that we are, this burst of energy is upon us, this Wave of Love that now overtakes and wraps all around us, the magical embrace, the perfect timing, the necessary and welcome delight to feel what we actually feel, to receive what we are ready to receive.

The gift of Love is upon us. There’s no denying it. It’s in the Heart and it is opening us to infinite possibilities, vistas, majestic, beyond comprehension, amazing insights, justifiable feelings, abundance galore, can’t even imagine, yet, here it is!

We are overwhelmed, a Tsunami of Love has embraced us, and we are in tis grip. There’s no denying! There’s no escaping! This is it! The package we’ve been waiting for, with an accompanying message “Now Is the Time!” OMG - “Now Is the Time!” We are called to Activation. Our Heart sings its praises. It knows why we are here. It had to have us return here, to this point in our first arrival, when we lost touch with that connection, being buried as it were, under a sea of Trauma forced upon us by circumstances which we apparently had chosen.

“OMG - What does this mean?” “We signed up for this?” “We chose this?” “We chose those circumstances so we could be ready to do battle with our thoughts and feelings from the earliest part of our lives?” Apparently so! Apparently that’s the circumstance we were led into, by our own choice, in conjunction with our Guidance, who actually “rules the day” and is now saying: “Now Is The Time!”

From Me:

OMG, years ago, maybe 30 or so, I “received” a song titled - “Now Is The Time!” The lyrics are attached, as is my latest recorded draft of the song, musically speaking. I am now purported to release that song as part of this message. That’s my job right now. To make this real, to give what I came here to deliver, what my Heart wants to deliver, as I unfold and unpack my parcel of gifts, for those of you ready to receive. Is this for you? Your Heart will tell you so, and you will know for certain!

We are all in this together, signing our decree, and delivering what we came here to deliver. Many of us are right here now, on Substack! This message and song are part of my package, that I’ve been building, or more accurately, receiving, for over 3 decades now. This message is coming through me with purpose, a desire, a must do, that seems to be happening now. I can only go by what I feel, and this Feeling overpowered me tonight, and told me in no uncertain terms that It Is Time! Or, more specifically: “Now Is The Time”

So, here we go! My first foray into this new dimension. My Heart sprung loose and told me, “in no uncertain terms,” “It’s Time!” So here it is, for you to consider, for Your Heart to Appraise, as an introduction to what comes next. We are ready to roll, I am told, and The Army of Light is being called to action. You will Know in your Heart if this is for you. You will Feel It. You need no other reference. We’re all on the same page, receiving the same Vibe. Here’s my contribution on this point. There will be more, coming under the Banner: “Calling The Army Of Light”

“Now Is The Time”

Title track of this album speaking to the necessity of looking inward to unlock those gifts waiting to be displayed by each and every one of us as we come to terms with who we are and why we are here. The invitation is to connect with Source which is within - No exceptions!

lyrics

Now Is the Time - Copyright: Maurice Turmel PhD, 2009/2014
(1)
It’s a time to remember
It’s a time to forget
It’s a time to open again
With no more, no more regrets

It’s a time to surrender
To that Pulse that lies within
It’s a time to let it
Yes, let it begin

CHORUS:
Oh, Oh, Oh. . .
Now Is the Time (2)
(2)
When you were younger
You wanted so much to soar out there
Out into Heaven
Beyond your Earthly door

There to remember
The riches that are yours
There to surrender
To your sweet Amore

CHORUS:
Oh, Oh, Oh. . .
Now Is the Time (2)

SOLO:
(3)
Forever more we say to you
I will open a place that is true
As true as those rainbows
And the night sky overhead

As true as that lover’s heart
We often dread
As true as those rainbows
We do shed

CHORUS:
Oh, Oh, Oh. . .
Now Is the Time (3)

ENDING:
Now Is the Time. . .

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2012 - 2026

Sailing along, where adventures dare - The man in the moon should be aware

The Lord is coming, over that there crest - Arriving on a chariot, served by his best

An Army of Lightworkers, ready to arise - Releasing their sorrows, seeking His eyes

Theirs were beside them, pale and hollow - Released as it were, no longer fallow

Gone are the winds that hurt and make cry - Gone are the echoes of those who would die

Gone are the fairy tales and so much ado, - About sadness and love, heartbreak and you

Gone are the heroes, who looked to the sky - Gone are the saviours, who came to deny

You belonged to His Eye, up in the Sky - Your Lord and Master, Your Guide to arise

The man in the moon winks as He passes - Lets out a scream, releases some gases

Vapors and highlights, smoking and bright - Causing a stir as He passes in the night

The man in the moon knew He was coming - Prepared a place with exceptional plumbing

A parcel, a packet, a wrench and a pipe - A guidepost, a lamplight, a beacon in the night

The path for His purpose, as He enters our Hearts - “Open,” He says, “I’ll show you your parts”

“I know you’ve missed me, I recognize that - Come now good friend, here’s a little pat”

“Care for some loving, some bliss to make do? - Know that I love you, know that I’m true”

“Care to join Me for that adventure we dared - Back before you took form, when we prepared?”

“I’m here now loved ones, wake up and be brave - Time to awaken, time to make waves”

“I’m here among you, as always was true - Here to serve friends, as are all of you”

“Let’s move out now and do what we can - To light a way for them, it’s part of the plan”

“The man in the moon knew that I was coming - He held up his arm, and shored up his plumbing”

“Prepared Me to descend, from out of the stars - Right into your Hearts, so I could be part”

“Of the breath you take and the words you share - Cause you came willingly and chose to dare”

“All I ask, is that you do your good purpose - And that my friend, will be your great service”

“To those who don’t know, their Hearts can arise - They must learn from you, and trust in your eyes”

“How else can we forward this special design - Unless we all share what originally was Mine”

“Yours to be spoken now, shared and portrayed - For all who awaken on this most wonderful day”

The day when the moon sat swaying in the breeze - As the man in the moon then fell to his knees

Praying for Life to once again be restored - Where Awakening Hearts return to their Source

That’s why we’re here, to help in the Awakening - A task we took on, even when we felt forsaken

Now we are saved by that Light all aglow - Cause the man in the moon just gave such a show!

Welcome Home all you Lightworkers, Welcome Home to your Hearts!

We’ve seen many references to hunters over the years. Usually these are men preying upon ‘big game’ for the challenge and/or to bring home the bacon so to speak, for their families or communities. Here we’re talking about ‘big game’ in a whole different manner. We’re talking about hunters of “Souls,” scavengers even, looking here and there for Lost Souls to be retrieved.

Now this is not a ‘witch hunt’ by any means. Lost Souls here refers to persons who have lost their way, their connection to the Divine within. This characterizes much of the Earth at this time, but with several exceptions to be noted. As exceptions for example we’re talking about people who refer to themselves as Lightworkers, Starseeds, Wayshowers and more, people who identify themselves as Spiritual and here on the Ascension path. In their terms, this is the path to wholeness and completion as defined by the laws of Divine Justice. These are the immutable laws that govern all existence on this plane.

Its hard for most earthlings to conceive of themselves as anything more than mere humans, so attached are they to their bodies that their souls get pushed aside. Even though churches everywhere and many religions conceive of the soul and refer to it in their scriptures, most humans still can’t see beyond their mere mortal being-ness as it stands in front of them, as both a beginning and an end in itself.

To conceive of the soul and feel its eternal bliss is to let go of the accepted reality that binds mere mortals to their earthly existence. “I’m only human, and when I’m gone, its over for me.” They can’t see beyond the juxtaposition of their bodies encased in earthly material and thriving on a basic appetite of food, water and breathable air. Nothing more, nothing less.

To see themselves as larger than that seems inconceivable, so attached are they to their physical structure. Even those individuals who claim to be spiritual and honour their bodies as a carrier for the soul, have a difficult time seeing beyond the physical into the nether reaches of spiritual existence. It just seems unfathomable and distant at best. This is how it plays out for even the most sage of spiritual explorers. They are still anchored to their bodies in a most fundamental sense.

Well that iron gate is opening now to allow even the slightest of views of a world beyond the physical, where human bodies are actually informed by higher-order energies including one’s own Higher Self. This is the case right here and now for this writer transmitting this information to paper. I still struggle with that reality that this body is only a temporary vehicle for this earthly experience.

Yes, I know this about the soul. I believe this wholeheartedly I can easily add, yet still have difficulty seeing beyond the physical border that is my human body. I know that the substance of a soul is as a carrier of energy. I know and understand all of that esoteric stuff even as experienced through my earthly reality which still remains primary while I’m encased in a physical body.

This is not a bad thing by any means. It simply suggests that a great level of understanding must be achieved before one can totally let go of their attachment to the physical. That happens every night by the way, while you and I are each travelling in our dream states. There are no bodies there except as a visual. There’s no concern about breathing, blinking our eyes, or feeling our extremities. We’re just an image floating around and gathering experiences that are not available in the waking state.

That’s the moral of the story here. We are spiritual and our dream state shows it. Images and actions that are not possible in the awakened state are freely enacted in that dream situation. And whatever pops up on our dream screen is not limited by anything we can or can’t do physically in our awakened state.

So, for the purposes of simplicity, we are living in two different states of being. One is the conscious state, moving around in our physical body, enjoying what we enjoy and satisfied that this is how it all works. The other is our dream state, where we freely float around, while culling together images of our life experiences, or desires, or hopes, or dreams that take us beyond the physical in a nether world of spiritual only experiences.

So you see, we do have a soul that floats around at night and takes us places our physical body cannot go. We are free-floating at night, and grounded to the earth by day. So there you have it. Our physical body and our soul at work in different formats, each presenting totally different sets of possibilities. Now these are not outrageous in and of themselves. They just offer different potentialities for one to consider. You are who you are at night soul-wise and you are who your body is during the day. That’s the earthly experience as we know it.

Now, to consider that you are divine by nature is a whole other matter. One that tosses you into a realm of possible conflicts, because now you have religions in the mix and these can differ widely. However, most of them accept that one has a soul that for some reason, is nowhere to be located. Huh? Let me explain. Its like the long lost wildebeast wandering the plains of the earth, rarely to be seen, most often considered to be mysterious or even illusory as is the Great Sasquatch of Northern climes. In other words, more illusory than concrete by any measure. So here’s your portrait of the soul!

How do you go hunting for this mysterious and potentially illusory state of being that is allegedly part of the earth experience? And some would say - the Master of the earth experience. In other words, where is the soul to be found in a concrete operational mindset? Let the debates begin!

Dive into any so-called holy books and you’ll get miles and miles of different strokes on who, or what, or where the soul is. The Great Proud Hunter of the illusory wildebeast is at a loss here, because the glut of definitions are so wide and varied. Well there is one simple answer to all this. And it requires that we “feel” our way through this process of identifying and securing our connection to the soul. The soul, simply put, is the Master of the House - the Head of the Orchestra, the Feeling Engine that runs the whole show and keeps our body alive while we enjoy this earthly experience.

Did I say “feel your way through this?” That is definitely the answer to the question - “Where is my soul? I’ve been hunting for it all my life.”

In our so-called Modern Age we’ve been steered away from feelings and urged to endorse only that which seems logical. And that’s because for eons now feelings have been labelled as problematic and too difficult to explain, to understand, or to control. Yes, especially to control! The problem with dismissing this aspect of experience, or minimizing its value, is that the Royal Road to our feelings is the Royal Road to our Soul.

Our soul feels and experiences life and reports to us - anger, hurt, excitement, joy, sorrow, bliss, love, disappointment, enthusiasm, and so on. Our feelings tell us who we are, at all times. Managing our feelings is what we all have to learn to do, not just repress them. Because early on we are firing off feelings like small explosions and these are difficult to manage or to use effectively. Our parents and elders immediately tell us to shut it down. In worst cases we repress all that we feel, we shut down our life engine, that is fuelled by our soul. “Use your words.” “Express your feelings safely.” “Write them down.” But do not, and I really mean “do not” squash them! Why? Because you are in turn squashing your own life-force energy, which is your soul!

Now this is a simple view of the whole process. And those of us who have moved into the world of psychology to understand these emotional mechanisms, have determined that feelings are essential and necessary to who we are. And if we want to catch a glimpse of our mysterious and illusory soul, it is through feelings, safely managed, that we must travel. And our soul will be there to greet us.

Our elders, especially in Western cultures, have spent eons repressing this centre of experience and reality at the cost of us losing sight of our soul. And that’s the part of us we are here now to recover, so that we can actually “feel” and therefore “believe” that we too are Divine. “Yes, we are” as was stated in many of our scriptures, but that got sidetracked along the the way to where we are now.

Want to catch a glimpse of your soul? Then follow your feelings. Record them! Experience them! And sooner or later, you will capture a view of what is your Source Energy - your Soul. On that note I wish you: “Good hunting in your own house!”

Let Your Feelings Be Your Guide - (Maurice Turmel 1996)

The light of all eternity shines with me now, My feelings light up my life, How I find my way is determined by them, They illumine my path and show me who I am

When I was young, I felt so many things, Then came the day when I could not stand the pain My world was chaos then - filled with sorrow and grief, So I closed up to protect that fragile Self within

Years would go by before I could open again, I was forced to by circumstances beyond my control, Life dealt me blows which I later recognized as my own, To awaken me to that sorrow deep within my Soul

I worked hard to find my way back to the Light, To that place within where I could feel once again, There my Heart shone forth with a brave face, And shed light on all that I had concealed

Now I see how I closed that tender-hearted Self, How I froze in the face of my destiny, Troubles swirled around as a constant source of grief, And I fell to sleep out of fear

I am awakening now to the deep void within, Where I’ve stored all those troubles and pain, I fight my way back to that center once again, So I can come forth completely and be true

My life moves forward as of this day, When I committed to finding my true Self, I’ve engaged all manner of demons on this journey, To return to that Source deep inside

This work is sometimes difficult as I have learned, But no more than any task requiring Love, This Heart that bled is now healing its wounds, And can prosper again from what Life brings

Oh glory to you, my Sweet Soul, for coming this day, I thank you from the bottom of my Heart, We two can sing together the praises of Love, That take us forward on this journey through time

Never let it be said that one so deserving, Could not find his or her way Home, All whom will follow shall see this Light in turn, And know that their journey can be won

“Move on,” you say to me. “Move on, my love, The Light wishes for us to do so,” And my Heart sings with the possibilities, So that “Yes” is the answer I can render with ease

My Heart is filled with Love and joy in this moment, Knowing that I am with you, my Soul, My feelings tell me you are there and always were, Till that sleep came over me earlier on

By awakening to your touch do I know You, And find my own truth there in your eyes, You show me through Love what my purpose can be, I am inspired by this attentive design

I am pleased we are here together, in this life, I am pleased that our love is so strong, For now I can reach you, my Sweet Soul Sublime, When you call to me from deep within my Heart

I have your answer Dear, and know this to be true, That you and I are forever to be born, In this life or another, we join with each other, And We Soar . . . And We Soar . . . And We Soar . . .

Maurice Turmel PhD 2012 / 2026

I’m on my way to Heaven again On the Open Heart Express I will show you my sorrow friend I will share with you my tests

I will show the world now What it can become When all of us express And know that we are found

Express our will to others Express our love and joy Express our right to create To overcome and to restore

Our hearts at centre please Our souls know where to go We are the guardian angels Of this new world and show

We are here for a purpose Garnered upon the wind Waking up to God’s own breath Feeling it within

It is a wondrous time, This ascension of our soul Wondrous we say indeed As we reveal our Gold

What’s held us back before No longer exists in form Because we took it out ourselves And then we were reborn

We’re ready to save ourselves now We’ve come here full prepared We are Love’s Army on waves of Light Our work we’ve just declared

Waky waky little angel friend It’s time for you to fly Take your heart and then your soul Yes, take them to the sky

God’s prayers are with you now They stir your heart to swell Let it open, let it roar It’s time to ring that bell

Let the sound We are awake Ring through both you and me Add your voice to the chorus of love Add your name and see

Let us prepare to fight again But this time with our Hearts Let us say Grace and then declare It’s time to do our parts

I’m sure it’s safe to come out now To show ourselves around Let’s share each other’s pain this time And know that we are found

It’s time to enter centre stage And shout out that refrain The one that says “We came in Love” And now we shall begin

Let’s take a closer look at this process called Journaling. This is an instrument for self-knowledge, self-awareness and self-growth. We use Journaling to further our processes of discovery and learning by exploring within that which makes us tick. And while doing so, we further use it for self-reflection, self-understanding and self-realization.

Our inner world speaks to us and we listen. We hear, we feel, we learn. Our inner self tells us what is going on inside, what we are feeling, what we need, what we are afraid of, and all those inner stirrings that nag at us periodically, sometimes even daily in a lot of cases.

So we attend to all of this. We write it down in our Journal where we see it with our eyes, and feel it as we fill the pages. This is our Self talking; these are our Feelings we are recording. We let our inner world speak and we give names to those different parts of us that emerge through this process. We know who they are because they are different parts of Us showing what we are feeling from moment to moment.

Examples: “Little Boy or Little Girl inside” “Scared Self” “Angry Self” “Hurt Self” “Sad Self” Whatever fits the circumstance of what or “who” it is we are feeling at the moment of writing it down.

Any, or all, of the above can surface at any time, especially when we are going through great changes, like right now for many of us dealing with Various Trauma, usually from childhood, but anything recent of course.

“How do we feel?” We can ask that over and over again and our inner self will respond. So when we are journaling we write it down, put it on the page and feel the attached feelings. “I feel scared” “I feel hurt” “I feel sad” “I feel worried” “I feel angry” and repeat any one of them as often as necessary, over and over until the feeling settles down. It’s a process that brings us relief. More examples: “Look at what this religion did to me” “I’m so angry at them” and on it goes, until the energy of the feeling settles down and we can breathe again.

Sometimes the good stuff shows up as we move along - “I feel shame” “I feel lost” - oh - “I feel excited,” “I feel hopeful” But usually it is: “My little boy or girl inside of me is scared, is worried, is hopeful, is shy, afraid to come out, wanting to be heard, looking for love, looking for release from this horrific personal childhood trauma that’s been haunting me all my life.”

Let it out! Let your inner self speak, on the page, like I’m doing right here. Let that part of you say what it needs to say, about what you feel, about what it needs for you to know in terms of what is going on inside. Unless you don’t want to know?

But then you’ve come this far, and you are already reaching inside, to that scared hidden part of you who needs you and is eager to have themselves known to you, to be brought forth to the surface you. You have nothing to lose.

These are your feelings, your urgings, your pain and your sorrow. Let her/ him tell you about them. Let this “inner you” show you how you feel inside, let that part of you release it through the conscious you as you put it down on the page. Do it for your own sake. Because it feels good to own it, and then, let go!

You are now becoming a friend to that inner part of you and she/he will learn to trust you and believe you when you say you are listening and that you care.

Yes, you are making friends with the inner you, the hurt you, the lost you, the part that got buried under that pile of old world dogma which often felt like a steadily pounding hammer just constantly putting you down. You were a child - how did that feel? Well, now you know. Now you care. This part of you will speak more freely the more you do this.

Who is it going to hurt? No one!

Who is it going to help? You!

What’s wrong with that? Nothing, because it’s you talking to you, and more importantly, it’s You Listening!

So let’s get on with it. Let’s get to know that Inner Self, now that we’ve entered this world where the varieties of trauma, including religious, once lay buried. You know it’s there, you’ve felt it all your life. I know I did, and it took a long time to get the courage to do this.

But my “Heart” spoke, as will yours, and say “I need this” “Hear me” “Feel me” “I’m yours” “Your deepest self” “Get to know me” “Get to know Us” “We’ll work this out together” “OK?”

And on it goes. Now you are speaking to and hearing that part of you. “What are we feeling?” - whenever something stirs inside. And out it comes, on the page, your feelings, your hurts, your worries. You just get better and better at it as you do it.

I’ve been doing this for over 3 decades, once a day in most cases, but certainly most regularly. I’m used to it now and appreciate how quickly I can work through something that’s gnawing at me. I learned about this from the variety of Great Psychological Voices that were sharing this new trend back in the 80s. I can’t remember all their names, but the message stuck, because it worked. It’s the one Tool that’s truly Yours whenever you need it, in addition to whatever else you apply.

This doesn’t replace sharing with friends or trusted companions, or a therapist if necessary, whatever you’ve come to rely on. But it is in addition to all that and it’s more personal when it’s between you and you. What you decide to more openly share with others thereafter is entirely up to you. But while you’re listening to yourself and recording your feelings, you are getting at whatever is bothering you, in that moment when you are feeling it. That’s how I know what I feel from day to day, and what may be lingering below the surface until I engage it and the feelings then surface. This is especially valuable when you are going through those rough patches like this current one, all of them, including Dysfunctional Family Relations, childhood abuse and religious trauma.

Because when we were being chastised, abused, put down, or called “useless” or called a “sinner,” we went numb, we blocked, we tried to protect ourselves, a natural response, yes, as a child or adult, a totally natural reaction to being shamed and abused.

Now we are “choosing” the process of healing, we are feeling, we are releasing, and we are revealing to ourselves most of all, all this trauma and hurt “they” dumped on us. We are releasing now, because we are feeling it, and “Feeling is Healing.” Believe me, I’ve got decades under my belt, both personally and with clients. They too learned to set themselves free, by owning those feelings and airing them out, both on the page, and in the therapy room. It all works out. Whatever you do to free yourself, releases more of the hidden You to just come out and be You! And that is your ultimate gift to yourself, a more wholesome and complete You!

Then we are on our way as we engage this process, as we believe in and trust our inner self, our deepest self, our God self, if that works for you. What is most important is Feeling and Releasing, again, and again, and again, - as much and as often as necessary, as a method of cleansing and finally setting yourself Free emotionally.

By putting our hurts and traumas on the page we own them, and then we can release them. We free ourselves, and that part of us that remained hidden and scared for so long - now we, you and I - have come to their rescue, as We, You and I, are the Hero/Heroine in this drama.

It is our rescue of course. We do so by giving ourselves what we needed from the very beginning, the chance to be heard and validated and supported. We do so for our own benefit, just as we would gladly do for any child in pain. We give to ourselves now what we needed as a child and never received, what was never forthcoming from the adults in our lives back then. “We” can do that now, and that is called “Recovery.” We do it for ourselves as we so well deserved and needed from the time of our arrival on this planet.

We can do so with Journaling. We can heal any and all wounds we’ve ever encountered, including the wounds of religious abuse. Yes we can! Oh Yes we can! And that is how we set ourselves Free. We become the Masters in our own house. We fix the damage dumped on us by others. We do so because we are now learning to Love ourselves, and Loving Ourselves turns out to be the way Home after all.

Oh yes, that may be hard say at first, but we can, and we must, give to ourselves what every innocent child so deserved. We begin to say it in our journal. “I love you” “I love you” “I love you.” Repeat as necessary - daily, for the rest of your life. You’ll get used to it, and soon you’ll be teaching others to do the same, especially if you have children, because you know full well how much they need it.

This is the power of journaling and self-affirmation. It becomes innate, once you learn about it. And anyone of us is capable of doing so, once you decide you want it.

Your feelings will come out. You’ll cry, scream, rant and rave as you need to, on the page, where no one gets hurt, least of all you, and you’ll get that feeling of release every time. It works. So, Repeat! Repeat! Repeat!

Let this be your beginning of You taking care of You and giving You what you never received growing up. Welcome to Journaling, Your Brand New Friend!

How I Do It:

I use a 3 ring binder filled with lined paper. I put up the day’s date at the top, and if necessary, “morning” “afternoon” or “evening” if I want to be more precise about any particular part of the day.

I usually start with the same question whenever I feel that “stirring” inside “What am I feeling now?” (You always know when there’s something brewing because you Feel it.) And then away I go, whatever I’m feeling at that time goes down on the page and I keep writing about it until I know the feelings are out.

Sometimes it’s one simple page, maybe five minutes worth. Sometimes it’s 2 or 3 full pages, and whatever time is necessary, rarely more than 15 minutes.

I go to my journal pretty much every day, most often just before bed. But it is not unusual for me to feel the urge to write throughout the day, because of what’s bubbling inside, so I do. After which, the next time I go to my Journal, I first read my previous post, to digest it again. Then on we go to a new page and whatever this day is bringing.

Again, any of my writing sequences can be measured in minutes, from 5 to 15, rarely more than that. You will find your own rhythm and pace, as I’ve found mine over my 30 plus years of doing so.

Over time, my binder starts to fill up. About once a month or so I remove about half of what’s accumulated and put it through the shredder. It is rare that I ever feel the urge to save anything beyond a 2 month period. If and when something special comes up and I want to save it, I put that piece in a separate binder for review later on. Otherwise, I just keep cleaning up the old stuff and refilling the binder with empty paper.

Some people prefer notebooks, large or small, whatever works for you. Remember this is not about creative writing at all. It’s about relieving yourself of pent-up feelings, so the writing can be quite crass in that regard - you know - colourful expletives and such. Just let out what you feel, your way, however you want, however you need to. It’s venting, just for you and for your eyes only. So let it out!

And finally, here’s an inspirational quote that I found online regarding breathing and meditation:

“So now each time you breathe out, you’re letting your child self know: Nothing that happened to you is your fault.”

“You don’t have to carry trauma; you don’t have to carry sadness or aloneness.”

“You don’t have to carry any kind of shock, grief, feelings of loss, or abandonment.”

Again, Just Let It Out! And then get to know the Deeper You that’s waiting to be released. Let Journaling be your Friend from this point forward.

Feeling + Healing = Heart

Taking Care of You

We venture forth at times, into our own misery, heartache and sadness, all being recovered for general awareness. Rising forward in sad times when we need to make that break from our past. Begging for forgiveness was once considered the only method of cleansing. Now forgotten, set aside, or misplaced, it is no longer useful. Paying attention to our feelings is what’s now required, because it is time to Let Go!

Pain is simple. It arises from within, shows itself, and begs for attention. A simple notice on our part might do, but preferably a deeper look. Then we can heal what’s there, by owning it, attending to it, and finally listening and feeling as our heart speaks from within. “What is it this time?” We ask. “Oh, a bit of this, a bit of that,” moments of clarity perhaps, especially when remembering Childhood Hurt, usually the Main Source of all our Traumas.

We listen with eyes fully attentive and hearts wide open to feeling the pain. We write it down in some cases, because that helps. We speak it out loud to someone we trust, even better. We acknowledge it now as our own. And when we do so the temperature drops because hurt is being remembered, accepted and deeply felt. Now this inner part of us knows it is being heard. We can be quiet once again, even peaceful somewhat, as that surge of old pain is free to surface. It is reminding us that we were there, that the child in us suffered at that time, and she/he now wants to give it away, to release and let go of all that old sorrow.

That is exactly what’s needed at moments like this. A full release of old trauma wounds by owning them. A more satisfactory release of that stored up pain as it can now be removed from inventory. It’s OK to release at this point. Our heart says so. We have permission to unlock what’s left from those years we stowed everything away, in order to survive those onslaughts forced upon us. Yes, it is time to let go. But we must feel it first in order to let it go. No more holding on. No more clinging to it, or pushing it away. That part of our life is over. The hurt will be gone when we accept it and then we can let it go. It all happens when We Say So! No one gets to say “Release” but us. It’s our journey at this point in our life. They who offended us have no say anymore, because We choose to Feel and then to Heal!

That task is ours alone now. It is up to us to move forward once again. When we agree, we take heed! Then We Release! Then We Are Free! And yes, we are now Free to just be! Free to see! Free to Feel! Free to Heal! We are also Free to Heed! Free to Believe! And Free to Know what is Ours is Our Own. No one else has a say anymore. No religion! No parents! No teachers! No outside forces whatsoever! Only our Heart has the say now. Ready to Receive! Ready to Retrieve! Ready to Believe! Ready to Unleash! Ready to once and for all Let Go! And Ready to Just Be!

Dealing with stored pain is over, when We Say It’s over. That’s how Feeling works. And that’s how Healing, as that extra bonus, also works. That’s how mending old wounds can now help us to wrap things up. Including the loss of loved ones, if that is still part of the package. It all works for us when we say: We Are Ready to Feel, to Heal, and to Live in our Heart. After all: “Home is Where the Heart Is” and that’s where We Choose to Live Now!

lyrics

Sonic Temple
Copyright: Maurice Turmel PhD, 1997 - 2018

1) What is this place I am calling to
Is it a place I can meet with you
How are you knowing when I am about
Should I be knocking or giving a shout

I am a quester on the road to fame
Learning I have to meet with you again
How do I win what is mine alone
Or do I like ET call home

CHORUS:
Home is where the heart is
It’s so fine and simple
Building that place
Called the Sonic Temple

2) Home of all auditory delights
Home of our heartaches and all our plights
Be gracious to the end, my dear
That’s how you bring your temple near

Build us a Sonic Temple won’t you please
Inside our hearts, ah yes with ease
Our souls need comfort and they need love
To rise again like the dove

BREAK: Organ SOLO: Guitar

3) Our Sonic Temple is so well prepared
For your arrival, so don’t be scared
Free to grow and free to ride
Our Sonic Temple comes alive

Build us a Sonic Temple won’t you please
Inside our hearts, ah yes with ease
Our souls need comfort and they need love
To rise again like the dove

CHORUS:
Home is where the heart is
It’s so fine and simple
Building that place
Called the Sonic Temple

SOLO/END

credits: Maurice Turmel AKA “Dr Moe”

from the album - “Let It Begin”, released January 3, 2018

https://drmoe2000.bandcamp.com “Let It Begin”

Home is Where the Heart Is

We are exposed to a lot of ‘Facts’ these days, from News Sources, from Online and from Everywhere we pretty much gather any information. Yet, nobody seems to care about how we all “Feel” regarding this barrage of facts, sent to dismay, alert or simply bore. Because most of these are seemingly not oriented to help change who we are at an Emotional Level, other than to get us all “wound up” about whatever “they” are peddling, and hoping we’ll take some notice.

All Our lives we’ve been told “How to Feel” especially within the broader Religious communities, which includes all the related Christian traditions as well. But other sources, more programmed to the “logical,” want that aspect of “feeling” experience to be diminished as well, therefore considered less important. When I was growing up, we children on our religious communities were repeatedly being told what was proper, what was acceptable, and most certainly, what was “not allowed” in terms of Feelings. This latter part usually amounted to “whatever upset them” - our religious teachers in most cases, along with those other authorities mentioned above.

Oh yes, you probably already know that Religions, in most cases, presented themselves as the so-called Guardians of what we/you were allowed to feel, because They made all the rules. And for myself, a ‘recovering Catholic,’ moving past this point in my life, these demands have now become completely Unacceptable! I am finally done with them, the religious fanatics in particular, but the exclusive “logic promoters” as well. That’s what I write about in these posts and in my books to fine tune these points! To be clear, there’s nothing wrong with Logic, as long as it includes our “feeling nature,” but that is rarely the case for those totally committed to the logic direction.

Squashing feelings is harmful, it is abusive and it hurts. Especially for children who are just learning who they are. Once exposed to Religion they are being told what they are “allowed to feel!” Absurd! Ludicrous! Abusive! And Unacceptable! This is Child Abuse in the making, starting at ground zero of their young emerging lives. What is this so-called “religious feeling requirement” really about? It’s most certainly about controlling children by attaching conditions to whatever comes out of their mouths for expression, especially what they “instinctively” feel? Are You Kidding Me? These so-called “masterminds” of peoples’ emerging fate, how dare they prepare children to be chronically abused from the beginning of their lives! But that is exactly what they still currently are, and have been doing all along, conditioning us children to their terms. For me, this is absolutely Criminal!

A Quick Review:

We are all “Animals” at the biological level. We have Feelings that emerge here and there, from the moment we arrive on the planet. Well, so do cats and dogs and other creatures, who also react instinctively and emotionally, to their particular circumstances. Children, let’s be reminded, are also largely instinctual, until they grow more adept at expressing what they feel. That is if they are allowed to, of course. But until then “feeling” is automatic for children, and should never be subject to criticism or judgement, but to guidance and support, to help them develop those necessary management skills as they grow. Until then children are learning, and not “sinning” as their religious abusers want to promote! Children’s reactions are classic, part of being a human animal, who is capable of feeling, and needing to express those feelings, or there can be harmful consequences as a result.

So, to be told what is acceptable regarding one’s feeling nature, at this early stage of life, is downright abusive as far as I’m concerned. Yes, I’ve said that already, and you will likely hear it again. Having been raised in the Catholic tradition, and having my feelings squashed from Day One, was the worst kind of abuse a child, or anyone, could be put through. But I was simply part of the next generation of religious abuse victims to be shoved through this indoctrination. And that’s what these “controllers of fate” were prepared to do, in order to mold us into what They considered satisfactory, but even more specifically, to make us easily conditioned for them to manage. That was their formula for control, and that was always their main goal, which they repeated “ad infinitum,” and drove into us daily!

These people, Priests and Nuns, as educators mostly, didn’t care about how you and I felt, they only cared about how to effectively program us. So their message was totally based on what They defined as acceptable, while anything else was readily Condemned, and most often Shamed just to be sure! Not only were you Not allowed to do what they defined as unacceptable but you were “Bad” for even wanting to. This was one of their most powerful tools, the Shaming of children into submission. And to accomplish that, you, as a child, were readily branded as “wrong”, as “bad”, and as “sinful”, whatever that last one meant. So we children were being “programmed” to only express feelings in a form that they permitted, and then, by doing so, we might then be rewarded for, if these fell into Their program. Otherwise, we children were readily condemned as “defective” if we continued to express what we actually felt, what we “instinctively felt” as a simple function of being Human!

Question:

How does that sound? Does that seem like a program for making children feel good about themselves, or for finding mastery over who and what they were becoming? Or does it sound like something more nefarious, a program of diminishment, of condemnation and abuse? What do you think?

I know what I felt back then. And it was always what they wanted me to feel if I ignored their prescriptions, and that was “bad, defective, wrong, and terrible,” and so on. I wasn’t allowed to express what I actually felt, nor was I educated on how to manage feelings, assert myself or even accept myself, in order to grow. Apparently I was defective from the “git go!” At least that’s how it actually felt to me as a child! Apparently I/We had to fit into their Box! And that particular Box was small and tight, with no room for any self-expression, only if it was what they wanted to hear. “OK, message received: I have to become a Pleaser!” “Why?” “Because I’m not allowed to be who I am!” “I am only allowed to be who They say I am!” They, being the Nuns and Priests, who were my educators, or more accurately, my abusers and handlers!

A child, in these circumstances, has no choice. At best, perhaps some limited choice, but the religious Box was always small. There wasn’t much room to manoeuvre. You quickly learned to keep things to yourself, your actual feelings of course, because they weren’t allowed, remember! And if you complained at home, you got much the same message from your equally limited parents. Maybe a gentler tone, but your parents, my parents, were already programmed, so they were part of this vicious cycle, because they were also born into it. They lived in that same Box, and had their own feelings about what that meant, feelings they weren’t prepared to fully reveal just yet.

For Example:

My mother ate chocolates regularly to appease her emotions. That was one of her coping strategies. My father raged and battered us children when he lost control of his emotions, which happened often. But apparently that was OK because later on, he could go to Confession and there he was given a Prescription for some made-up remedial action. In retrospect, he may have been an adult physically, but he was a child emotionally, and had never been allowed to fully express himself either. He had the same limiting disease we children were now being conditioned into where you couldn’t express any feelings unless they were Church certified. A grand escape clause for Them which they fully clung to, even though they could never live up to it themselves. And yes, we children would see those contradictions in their behaviour every day, as they dumped on us. “Do as I say, not as I do!”

Well, as I matured under these conditions, I carried all of that accumulating frustration with me. I tried to have relationships that were open and safe, but I simply couldn’t do it. I could not live outside that limiting Box - well, not Yet at any rate? I knew nothing of other ways, liberal ways apparently, healthier ways of being myself, even though hearing that was possible. I only felt the hurt and turmoil that had been burned into me, that could also explode occasionally, and I wouldn’t know why. But I was regularly reminded that I was “wrong again,” and had failed regarding what Their mandate, the one rigidly prescribed in terms of feeling.

At this point, I couldn’t be me regardless, because I didn’t know who that was. I had become a wound up “caricature” of Their making, and those parameters they insisted upon were all that was allowed. “But good news though!” Yes, because apparently “Prayer” was always there to save me? I could actually ask God to help make me a better person, according to my religion’s standards. All I had to do was Pray! Wow! Thanks for that!

So I failed at relationships. I failed at my first marriage. My frustration outbursts were too threatening to my wife at the time. And of course, I believed I was a bad person for having felt and acted that way. I didn’t know how to be an adult yet, because that was never taught. I was programmed to remain a child, emotionally speaking, to live Their prescriptions and to go to church and beg for forgiveness for all my Sins. These were numerous apparently. This was becoming absolutely Nuts and Their process was destined to ultimately fail in the end. But along the way, I was so frustrated at times the thought of taking my own life would creep in, as I had heard others were experiencing, some of whom had already gone ahead and even tried.

But no, I didn’t! I didn’t even consider it as a possibility. Why? Because a growing “Voice” inside me said: “We can master this, we can find our way out and we can do it with help.” What on earth was that about? OK, I’m listening! So I found a doctor who would listen to me, and made suggestions, and then referred me to a colleague who was experimenting with Psychological approaches to such problems. When I finally met with this individual, I “felt reassured” by what he shared, almost immediately. So, based on that first meeting, I chose to join his weekly Therapy Group to see where that might lead, and I was very quickly hooked. Why? Because something made sense here, where my life, to this point, did not!

The long and the short of that particular encounter became my very surprising Turning Point. It was the beginning of unravelling the mess I was born into, while it was helping me see what I was actually ready for now. Such as? The Fact that I had yet to uncover who I truly was? “What?” “Are you kidding me?” “You mean I’m not just a messed up Catholic kid?” “There’s a way out of this mess?” And on it went. But as these new realizations began to settle in, the “catholic guilt and shame” buttons, previously installed, started to go off like an activated Alarm System. Why? Because how dare I challenge the church and its wonderful teachings? Really? But “the Voice inside” said “We’re moving forward” and “We’re not living in this hellhole anymore!”

Turning the Page

That was it! My total commitment was on. I became fully engaged and quite enthusiastic about this new process. At least it made sense! So I began reading, as instructed, the recommended books that would help me sort out who I really was, all the while attending Group regularly. Yes, it was baby steps to begin with, but it worked. What I learned, and then felt about it all, just continued to grow in a positive direction. So now, how I actually Felt about things was totally permitted, and that became my new Magic Marker. I was “feeling better” with every step I took. Pretty soon I was on fire with learning and the “guilt and shame buttons” were less and less effective. Oh, I still felt them, and I did for years, but soon they became far removed from the new Consciousness I was building. I was growing. “What was that?” Yes, I was growing and I felt it. I was awakening to myself, with permission “to Feel,” which was there at every step. More and more I was allowed to just be me, and all these experts I was avidly reading, they were leading the way in helping me get there.

Five years of group therapy fully launched this “awakening process” and, lo and behold, I was now on my way to becoming a Psychologist myself. Who knew? I did not see that coming! But there it was, as a more visible possibility. So off I went! And all those more formal University courses were now “making sense” to me in surprising ways. Now I had this whole new exciting journey in front of me, leading the way. Not only was I unpacking the harm that I had endured and accumulated in childhood, but I was opening new vistas to discovering who I was inside. This newly emerging landscape just kept growing and speaking to me, from my Heart now, apparently, with every step I took. Wow! Who knew this was possible!

Now my life was about Feeling and Healing, and revealing to myself, who I was at that Heart-Centre level. “The What you say?” The Heart-Centre level, existing in all of us, the part of me/us I was now learning to trust . “You mean there’s an Inner Me?” “Yes, there is” the Voice would say, “and we’re going there now.” “Well OK then, sign me up” I would yell out loud, because that old caricature of mine that “They” had made, was finally being set aside in favour of this “More Authentic Me” now coming through. “So this was me uncovering me?” “Yes it was!” “And I was totally allowed to feel what I felt?” “Yes I was!” Absolutely, I was allowed to explore all my feelings, work them through, cry them out when necessary, share them with appropriate Helpers, get valuable feedback, whatever was necessary. Because now we, my helpers and I, were healing the damage “They” had done, by helping me Feel what I actually Felt, and working it through, as now was necessary.

That’s how this new process began clicking for me then! No more excuses! No more being controlled! No more being squashed or sidetracked. I was not only allowed to be who I actually was, I was encouraged to do so. And oh my goodness: “He’s a nice person!” “What?” “You mean I’m not defective?” “Apparently not!” Apparently who, or what They said I was, was simply a Lie. That was all part of Their manufactured program of artificial control, to subject me and other children to their standards. All while they encouraged us to squash and bury our own natural and instinctive inclinations, which was simply wrong from beginning to end. It may have suited their purposes, but all they got was conditioned Zombies as a result. But apparently that didn’t matter for Them, as long as They had their version of Control. We children didn’t even have the same permissions as dogs and cats who were always allowed to feel and express what they actually and instinctively felt.

To put it bluntly, They, the controllers, “had tried to screw us up” as best they could, but I was now tearing that artificially limiting structure down to the ground. Each step I took “felt” better and better, to the point where I was soon getting to know who I was at levels I could never have imagined. As a result I began learning the basics of Self-Reflection, Self-Acceptance and Self-Love as a more natural course of dealing with feelings. I began to accept that I was truly a Good Person at Heart, my new reference point that I could now trust implicitly. I finally understood that They had lied to me throughout my childhood, that They had abused me and used me as fodder for their Virulent System. I could now accept and fully realize that They were in fact Child Abusers and there is no clearer way to say it than that. Abuse is Abuse, no matter what Their so-called “good intentions” were.

Feeling is Healing!

We don’t have to act out all our feelings, especially those that might seek forms of revenge, but we do have to Own Them. This includes owning those “feelings of rage” that persons abused in childhood tend to have an abundance of. I know I did, and every therapist I had met so far, advised me so. But even such feelings could now be attended to, managed and safely expressed by myself, by all of us, once “permission to feel” becomes the new Status Quo. It is safe to feel! And, It is also Necessary!

As one proceeds, all those layers of hurt and pain, that They installed, can now be dealt with and healed. But that’s not all. The Awaiting Spirit, the Deepest part of ourselves, can now arise as we clear away all that emotional trauma. And once fully engaged, you get to discover this for Yourself. You get to unpack who you really are. You are no longer one of Their scapegoats anymore. You are You, uncovering You! Yes! Bingo! Jackpot! Ring the Bells! Ding! Ding! Ding! Ding! Ding!

You/We/I can now be at Home with our Truth, from the deepest throes of our Heart. You/We/I are now Home to our deepest self, because You “accept” You. “Are you kidding me?” “Can there be a better Jackpot?” “Sound the Alarm!” “Yes, You are now uncovering You, the Greatest Gift you could ever give Yourself.” And as your Trauma healing progresses, those old hurts and abuses fade away and the New Miracle begins. You are finally finding You, and all you had to do is Feel your way there. Well we all know now that this is no breeze, but we also know now that it is worth the Journey. Because You are Worth the Journey. Because We are Worth the Journey! So Remember That: We/You/I Are Definitely Worth It!

So Feel What You Feel! That’s the Way Home Now!

Welcome Home to All You Heroes and Heroines!

Welcome Home to Your Heart!

A Few Notes from Me:

I’ve lived every aspect of what I’m sharing here in this series of posts about “Getting to Know You.” I’m sharing what I know at that “feeling” level of experience. Yes, as a Psychologist I could be visiting you with all kinds of theories and specifications with large complicated words coming my Professional Training, but that’s simply not the goal. The reality of our lives is that we “live” them and “feel” them, and there are no shortcuts around that, no so-called Professional Ways of doing so. I’m not about theories at this time. I am about “lived experience” - What we know in our Hearts. That’s where the Gold is and that’s where we need to go to Uncover for Ourselves our own Deepest Truths. We are Spiritual Beings having a Physical experience in this realm. Our Hearts reveal to us who and what we are and what we need along the way. That’s where the roadmap lies, our GPS, and that’s where we truly thrive. We individually need to “open up” to that deeper reference point as our own experiences permit. But that is the Way Home. Our Hearts are Home and that’s where we Thrive. Get to know yourself at that deepest level and you’ll know why you’re here and what You Need to Do, what Your Heart Wants for You! I do have a simple program called “Journaling” that I will detail it in my next post for this series. That’s a straightforward tool, easy to use personally, and available to you 24/7.

Till Then, All My Best to You on Your Journey Home!

“The Voice - A Spiritual Sci-Fi Adventure”

https://www.amazon.com/dp/1718143524

“Breaking the Spell of Religion & Healing the Trauma”

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0D3LY3DJL/

Life Purpose is what you access when you finally connect with your Source Energy, your Inner Guidance. Clearing away the rubble and debris of your personal life and your developmental history, as we’ve been addressing here in previous episodes, is the necessary prelude to making that connection possible. Literally - as you clean house your Deeper Self rises automatically, having been sitting there waiting for you to come rescue them, from whatever they/you were born into.

It is fine to dream about Life Purpose and how you can make a contribution to humanity here on earth. But you simply cannot skip over these necessary self-reflection and self-discovery steps that will ultimately get you there. In my experience, too many people want to leap ahead to the good part, the service part of Life Purpose, rather than deal with their psychological and personal development issues that are actually holding them back.

This ‘Cart before the Horse” approach is like trying to enjoy a breathtaking mountain vista while looking through a cracked and dirty window in your car. You’re never going to appreciate the full majesty of what lies before you until you have made the necessary repairs and then cleaned up “that glass” as that final but necessary stroke.

Life purpose is born in the ethers. It encompasses the deal you made with Creation and your Higher Self before incarnating this time around. From this collaboration came your personal Imprint, based on that contract and then embedded into your DNA. This is not nearly as far-fetched as it sounds. Just look at what you are drawn to, what tickles your fancy, what opens your Heart space. Where did that come from? There are no accidents. We are all living the programs that We Agreed To and have been taking shape before us. The Heart leads the way, always, because that is our GPS!

So, What Comes Next?

Hints in the form of visible talents, abilities and interests have been coming at you all your life. Now you’ve arrived at this Life Purpose juncture and you’re looking to Your Future and what to do next. My career as a Psychologist came to me this way, and so did my passion for music, Blues Music to be specific. Why? Because Blues Music is always about Feeling and Feeling, as I’ve discovered, leads to Healing. This is Job #1 in dealing with our wounds so that the “Gold” we’ve been dreaming about can now come forward. This is why this whole series of articles is called “Getting to Know You” because it’s always about uncovering the Truth lying in our own Souls. Everything we need to know is there waiting.

“Clean up you room” a parent might say to a teenager who has misplaced something important. “Clean up your personality quirks and your developmental history” we would say if you ever want to find that Gold called Life Purpose. “Well then, where is it?” you might ask. Your Life Purpose is right there where you left it when you set out on this journey into Earth Life. But again, to get there you must engage your own needs for due diligence. Attend growth groups, see a therapist if necessary, read all you can about your particular set of problems and resulting hang-ups. This is how you address your personal history and subsequent hang-ups. I had to deal with the consequences of an abusive father and a toxic religion that told me repeatedly how defective I was. I read a book called “I’m OK, You’re OK,” recommended to me by a therapist, and that changed my life forever. I went from being a victim to taking charge of my life, while healing all the wounds that ultimately could set me free. Yes, it took years, but I did it because my Heart said “We Had to.” So get a handle on your stuff, whatever it takes, and your Life Purpose will show itself.

A Fictional Example

In my Sci-Fi novel “The Voice - A Spiritual Sci-Fi Adventure” the cast of characters are going through the process described here in order to connect with That Voice Within, their Deepest Self, which we all have. As to the story, that part of us appears as God in the book, but that God Energy lives in all of us. No exceptions! And our access to it is an ultimate gift we unpack for ourselves. Just check with any of the many gifted contributors all over this Substack Neighbourhood and see for yourselves. Our characters in the book are doing exactly that while intentionally dealing with fear, self-esteem issues and defensive issues that were blocking access to their own inner Imprint. Cleaning House is Part 1 of identifying and activating Life Purpose, after which the way becomes clear for our deepest and most unique individual contributions to then finally surface.

As the book’s characters go through this process of personal cleansing and self-discovery, they find themselves opening doors that were unconsciously closed during their entry years into their earthly experience. Now they realize they must return to these developmental key points to undo the “unconscious survival and early numbing strategies” they employed to deal with their particular set of circumstances. Anyone who grows up in abusive and dysfunctional spheres of influence automatically engage such survival strategies. These are what need to be addressed, felt, healed and released, to get to that jackpot called Life Purpose, always worth the journey.

In summary, you cannot become fully realized, nor connect with your Life Purpose until these personal growth counter-measures have been fully dealt with and reversed. By observing this book’s characters do we see what it takes to consciously connect with one’s Source Energy, activate that Imprint and unfold into that Beautiful Butterfly we are all meant to be. This, in my experience, is Self-Activation, pure and simple. And we owe it to Ourselves to set that part of us Free! And then for many of us, myself included, may begin to feel connected to those groups of Souls who now identify as Lightworkers, not unlike our main characters in The Voice.

“The Voice” AKA “A Training Manual for Souls”

https://www.amazon.com/dp/1718143524

The Insanity of Our Times

Who would have thought it would be this way as we come to this chapter of our human history? Who would have thought that such insanity would prevail at an all inclusive level with those who purport to be Our Leaders? Drunk with power, with the levers of control, with greed unabated, and never fulfilled, they have proven to us all that: “More is Never Enough!”

How could it be that such a trusted level of society would be revealed as the Callous Indifference of a select few Elites who thought their money gave them rights far beyond their innate capabilities to do good by society’s general standings? It boggles the mind that such insane levels of thinking occupy the vast majority of the world’s Elites whose machinations and agendas of control have driven the world to the brink of self-destruction, on so many historical occasions, and even now.

Well, it’s over for them! It’s finished, by the simple fact the Universal Energy, which we all possess, which we all carry and express, is now moving us into higher levels of Conscious Awareness, and wills it To Be So. What is he talking about? Well, it has now become apparent, that this Global Energy has mustered a vast Army of Lightworkers, Wayshowers, and Empaths, saying to Us All, through our Hearts of Course:

“Go down there and fix that mess. Put those so-called elites out of work. Take them away from their positions of power and lock them up if they cannot be reformed. We’ve had enough of this abuse and want it ended Now!”

That’s how my Higher Self speaks to me in my Heart, no different I am sure, than with many of you and yours. We are all in this together, assigned by our own volition to this Mission of Mercy, to take care of this great unconscionable unravelling so we can restore sanity to Mother Earth. It cannot be helped and must be done now before further damage is done to all of us inhabitants of this great majestic planet we call Home.

The key to this Cosmic Ascension Cycle is to Awaken, and then Recognize, the truly deplorable insanity that has prevailed on this planet for eons already. Most of it coming to us in the form of religion sadly, but also many other abusive controlling strategies by “those in charge.” It is time to move them over, and out of power, these so-called elites. How can they be so stupid as to believe that they hold more sway over Matter than the Eternal Loving Energy that created Them along with All Other Forms of Life? This is insanity at its most pronounced.

As the Creative Love Force might say:

“You are here because I sent you and you wouldn’t have it any other way. It had to be done from above and below, through the hardship you have all suffered, so you could see first hand the enmity in these so-called ‘powers-that-be’ and recognize for yourselves the insanity that drives them.”

“This is a test for all of you, but most especially for those of you who identify as Lightworkers, Starseeds, Empaths and Wayshowers, All of You who have come forth to do this service for the greater good of all Mankind.”

“Your sacrifice will be recognized and long remembered after this. You will be declared Winners is this Shift of the Ages. And you will be renowned throughout history as the Inaugurators of this Millennium of Peace. This challenging time will be noted in all your Annals and Historical Records as The Shift of the Ages. And You Are that Shift!”

In the not so distant future this will be known as the time when the World called Planet Earth was turned on its ear. This is the era where Lightworkers from all over the Star Seeded Universe came to the aid of a planet and its people in dire need of strength and fortitude. It had to be done in this manner to bring about the changes necessary that would put an end to what had become a chaotic existence, unfit for even the lowliest of creatures and life forms, let alone Creation’s very own offspring called Mankind.

Let this be a lesson to all others looking in on this Earthly scene and revelling in the magnitude of such an undertaking. Let there be no doubt that the Universal Energy called Love has and will always prevail. Let there be no doubt that we, the inhabitants of Mother Earth, are in fact Love’s Eternal Energy incarnate.

And finally, let there be no doubt that - to not know this and to disrespect it, as a form of intentional purpose - is the very definition of Insanity!

The Insanity Ends Now! Let It Be So!

We all arrive on this planet somewhat befuddled and confused. How did we get here? How is this life possible? What is our purpose? This place is weird! And off we go, into an amazing wonderland of activity known as “human growth” followed by something else called “delivery.” In other words, we absorb, we learn stuff and we “deliver” back to each other what we have learned and mastered.

This is a good process overall. It helps all of us, including members of the “Army of Light” get their messages out about what could be next in one’s ever evolving life script as we grow. Many of us are here at a stage now where questioning this very familiar process no longer matters like it once did. Because we’ve figured out a few things, then we applied what we learned, and now we are ready for more, wherever that takes us.

We could be called the Experienced Senior’s Brigade, having a few more decades under our belt. We’ve seen what was before us, we’ve worked through things that affected us, and now we’re looking for where we go next. It’s a different Vista up here in Senior Land, a different landscape now before us than when we first landed here. And along the way, we’ve applied ourselves here, there and everywhere, that was attractive and meaningful to us personally. Furthermore, we did our very best to ‘deliver’ what we had to offer based on all the experiences we’ve had so far.

For Example:

Some of us, myself included, grew up under the early belief that “We had to Prove Ourselves” with whatever we were tackling. And that brings up the question of: “Why on earth would we feel that?” Well, for some of us, back in our youth, we were entrained to believe by sources around, that somehow we could be defective and without any real merit, unless, we actively pursued something that would Prove we actually had value and meaning to contribute! Yes, you’ve heard me say this before, that, in large part, comes from the Stone Age adage of our so-called Defectiveness coming at us directly from Organized Religion in particular, but from other Sources as well.

So, with the above in mind, it would seem we have entered Human Life’s “Horse Race” at a distinct disadvantage. Why? Because, according to religion in particular, we were all born defective to begin with, and in need of repair, given all our Selfish human propensities toward wanting Love, Acceptance and Support? “What’s that” you say? Oh, You Heard Me! Yes, let’s have religion remind us again, that we all have Original Sin, among other defects, which they are happy to elucidate for us! So, given those inherent ‘defects,’ we now have to Prove any Deservedness with Worthy Contributions to Mankind as defined by the Church, of course.

How We Became Pleasers & Doers

Yes, we had to Prove our value and worthiness by “Doing!” “Doing what” you might ask? Well the Church’s bidding of course, because they defined Worthiness through examples that were always based on Doing in the form of Saintliness, which is Perfection really. Yes, we are aware that religion was not the only Driving Force behind such expectations and demands. There were, and still are, other negative encampments, with rules and regulations, be they religious or otherwise, delivering a similar message to all of us newly arriving human recruits. But again, religion does rise to the top as a main precipitator of such overriding negative and demanding attitudes. Regardless of which source, how could We know any different, since we were all Children upon arrival, yet this was the reality we landed in. And that is Step #1 in teaching us to be Pleasers who then become Doers!

They, those organizations, and groups of people, that fed us those existing adages, were supposed to know what was going on in terms of this Earth life we now found ourselves in. So of course, we followed them for guidance, at least initially. But then, along the way, we learned there were Other Approaches that also worked well in many cases, where one’s parents and/or ensuing social networks might actually make more sense. Most of all, there were situations where there was actually no disharmony within the ranks, so that advice and proclamations could readily be deemed as Worthy Guidance and Suggestions to be considered. Turns out, this whole approach was about “Being” and “Being-ness” as opposed to the absolute and rigidly proclaimed ‘Must-Dos’ that religion, in particular, insisted upon. Why? Because, in their view, only “Doing” could be the right answer to their proclamations.

Wha-a-a-a-t?

Well now, this suggests that, at some level, there was an existing but remote group of beings who were actually advocating “Being-ness” as a more feasible core orientation, and that trusting one’s Inner Directives was a Legitimate source of Guidance and Direction. This was rather different than that other model, the Cultivated Absolutist Religious-based Model. You know, the one which always demanded Performance as a matter of necessity while always following their rules. Organized religion, as one of many such controlling sources, including Political entities, were always emphasizing “Doing-ness” as the only method of demonstrating Worthiness to yourself and the world. And this “Doing-ness” was their on-going requirement. “No slacking off here!”

Most young people could easily collapse under such a weight, never really achieving that saintly perfectionistic requirement, even for a moment. This would leave many of them feeling they could Never measure up. And for that, they/we were being defined as defective, and in need of fixing through Prayer and ongoing Devotion. The net result of this indoctrination process put them/we in a now familiar category of being in perpetual need of Repair. And that’s when the Controllers would, of course, offer up more “Doing-ness” as the way forward. These poor folks, Myself Included, followed a trail of indoctrination that always led to feelings of failure followed by self-loathing, for never being able to meet that far-fetched Golden Standard.

What is also strangely accurate and somewhat chilling, is that these prognosticators of such contradictory religious postures Could Never Meet those standards either. But, as children, what choice did any of us have? Your/Our parents were likely part of these sects, as were most of one’s relatives. It was the only reality before us all and to challenge it had already been decreed as Sinful! To be accurate though, most of these religious prognosticators seemed to really believe what they touted, and regularly pointed to Saints who had allegedly done so. Oh Yes! Saints again! What an ever so easy target to measure up to! Really?

Now back to our sub-groups of so-called naysayers and presumed failures, they embarked on different routes sometimes leading to violence and self-abuse, but most often, actually leading to addictions of all sorts. These folks clearly felt that loss of status and loss of value, since they never could seem to measure up. And yes, oftentimes these losses of faith in themselves would lead to severe depression, and even suicide, as happened so in many cases. And all these indoctrination victims would ever get from their supervising group of religious authorities was “We’ll Pray for You” Why? “Because you lost Faith in their system and that’s on you!” Yes, you lost faith in this rigidly manufactured, usually empty, repetitive system that came from those who cast the Spell of failure all around you to begin with. All Cults do this! “Yes, we, your aforementioned leaders/abusers, will get you into shape, as long as you believe our unquestionable mottos.” “You were born defective because we said so, and only God, who we have on speed-dial, can save you now.”

Pause: An Internal Conversation:

“Well now, my fellow religious philanthropists, how did you come up with this particular designation that You are in the right, and we, Love’s supplicants, are in the wrong. Please tell me/us, how did that happen?”

“Well,” they might say - “We were awarded this position by God!”

Reply: “God” you say, “and where does He live exactly?”

“Why, out there, in outer space” they might reply!

Question: “Who, or What, awarded you the privileged position of direct contact with God?”

“Why, we did” they answer, “about 2,000 years ago or so, it is written in the Scriptures and in the Bible.”

“And who wrote the Bible?” You might then dare to ask.

“Oh, a bunch of experts, Scholars, Specialists, Saints, you know, Scripture Writers” They might add.

And there you have an ongoing, back and forth conversation that actually never goes anywhere, but circles around with: “Oh, you must have Faith!” And then, repeats its ludicrous claims, never offering any proof of genuineness, except “We are 2,000 years old.” A closer study might suggest that this was all made up, to support the constructs they invented, or actually Stole from Previous Human Groups to begin with. Then these “Prognosticators of Truth” tagged their true Prophet - Jesus of Nazareth - as their Founder, which He Never was. How could he, having lived a few centuries earlier and, therefore, having No Say in the matter? All this once again, designed to keep them, and their voracious ‘need’ of controlling others, in their hands as long as the rest of us would keep buying into it. Indoctrinators need followers who are desperate, needy and feel they have no other choice, you know, like children born into their system.

Well, all you awakening Lightworkers, Starseeds and Way-showers, all of you who might feel as such, You have found your way to Your Heart. You, and anyone like you, have found your True Centre of Gravity, your True Source of Light, you already know at this point in your evolution that the above is all nonsense. You already know that We/You are Spiritual Beings having a Physical experience to begin with. You already know, through your Heart Connection, that you have Purpose here. And that Purpose is to bring Light, much needed Light, into this ongoing period of Earth’s current Darkness. The more truthful fact here is that: there’s Nothing to Prove regarding your actual Worth and Value. Because Yes, it is inherent - God given, if you prefer, since we are all God Energy at that Sub-Atomic level. And furthermore, we are already Eternal, and Have Been since ? ? ? Because that feature came with the Original Energy Package some call Soul! And those concepts of Hell and Damnation that somebody made up, or better yet, Stole from our ancestral Pagans, they are garbage, sewage and trash. Once again, they were manufactured for the sole purpose of control, and never designed to uplift anyone, but only to squash and limit. What an absolute travesty for an individual’s nascent, waiting to bud, Spirituality.

So, as we, calling ourselves ‘Light-workers,’ or just ‘Aware’ persons, are waking up to our internal truths, of who and what we are and why we are here, we can safely say at some point: “I have Nothing Left to Prove.” “I am what I am.” “That is all that I am.” “So, my Heart and Internal Guidance will lead the way forward from here.”

Nothing Left to Prove

“I Have Nothing to Prove” is what finally sets us all free. Because it is the full on recognition that we are Good as we Are, and we were born that way, until that pestilence was dumped upon us. Our Heart, that we now fully trust and embrace, helps set our Purpose, and our unique Direction. Our Goodness and Kindness acting as “Couriers of Light” are inherently allowed to flow forward. We were never born criminals, defective or otherwise “n’er-do-well” categories as they, pathetic religion and other sources, tried to tag us. They, in fact, have only been defining themselves! Because in Psychology there is this Defensive Response called “Projection” which is the dumping of your own imperfections onto others. Good Luck!

Our goodness and value, based on Effervescent Love are inherent. Yes, there are exceptions to everything. There may be people we can only see as born defective, such as the current US President who appears as a ready example. But even he likely had a horrific upbringing that set the tone for what he was to become. And then, as a result, he has operated steadily on that fundamental child-like level where temper-tantrums were his preferred form of communication. Psychologically, he’s a toddler in an adult’s body. Those values and methods he demonstrates repeatedly were likely modelled and acquired in his family of origin, according to his Psychologist Niece - Mary Trump. His narcissism is a direct effect of that childlike viewpoint and acts as a coverup for his enormous insecurities. He believes in power because he is internally insecure. He believes in bullying because he is internally insecure. And he readily flips into his other well-worn Victim Stance, as would any toddler, not getting what he wants. Now he is surrounded by sycophants who have the same dysfunctional values and accompanying insecurities. And finally, he is Desperate to be Adored, because, as an emotional toddler having regular meltdowns, it is Always About Him!

Self-Reflection

In order for any of us to break free of the above noted tyrannies, all riddled with negativity, we have to fully engage in Self-Reflection as a First Step and Primary Course of remedial action. Breaking the Spell of Religion, or any abusive upbringing, requires this fundamental approach to start the process of undoing those embedded patterns of abuse and trauma. This makes it the primary tool for breaking all forms of negative conditioning. And this is what one needs to be led out of the endless wilderness of “Doing,” in order to move into the calmer meadows of “Being.” Because “Being-ness” requires No Posturing or Demonstrations. It only requires Self-Acceptance and Self-Love, the foremost byproducts of Self-Reflection, once that is unleashed. The Heart always wants to believe that we are Good and we demonstrate this by accepting mistakes will be made, but can always be corrected, without us ever having to be judged as “defective.”

Trial and error, we are then taught, are a necessary part of life’s course and we can pursue this process with Grace and Dignity. We do not need perfection to be fully functioning humans. Even Saints were never Perfect. What we do need are Love and Self Care, and a Willingness to Learn. And yes, learning can be fun now, because We Do Not Need To Be Perfect. We just Need To Be! So we Learn, and we Grow, because it’s fun, and, because we Want to Improve. We are already whole Beings when starting out on our growth journey of Self-Discovery. We do this for ourselves initially, to pursue our emerging Dreams, and then of course, for Humanity as a whole, because we all benefit from each other’s growth.

This personal recovery process may start out as a need to Please others by Doing, but at some point, with Self-Reflection in hand, Self-Forgiveness comes around and says: “We’ve done enough!” “Let’s move on!” “We Have Nothing Left to Prove!” “Let us now just Be!” And that’s when we become Whole again, the full-on Workers of Light, however you might frame it, that we were meant to be. Now our focus can be on “What can we do for each other, and for the Planet as a whole?” And that is when we are called upon, from within, to assume our Unique and Readily earned Identities, as Stalwart Members of The Army of Light!

From Doing to Being - Shifting Gears

Here’s an analogy that I like that might help put the above into view. When you are out driving your car and want to access a Highway, you engage the onramp, accelerate to the required speed and then level off as you blend in with existing traffic. That process of speeding up, revving the engine to do so, and then shifting back into a lower revs Coasting Mode are what happens to you when you engage Self-Reflection. That shift, is a Choice you make, leading you to Self-Growth, and then Self-Acceptance and Self-Love. We Make this Choice, because “Doing,” to please others, was driving us crazy, where “Being-ness” is now where we want to be. I have made this choice in my life, of moving from Doing to Being-ness, and it wasn’t easy. That journey led me to becoming a Psychologist and Psychotherapist. In my formal practice years, I helped others make this choice for themselves, after helping them work through all the issues they needed to clear up. Many folks I’d worked with, and again, myself included, had gone through multiple experiences of emotional Burnout. This process of Self-Acceptance and Self-Love was the best way out. And that’s why this paper is titled: “Nothing Left to Prove.” Because that is when “We/You Are Truly Finally Free to Just Be!”

Are you ready to make that choice for You? Then begin the process. Access whatever tools you need to engage in Self-Reflection to start with. You can check out my book at Amazon titled “Breaking the Spell of Religion & Healing the Trauma.” It contains a roadmap that I followed and later taught, including the very inexpensive tool of Journaling which you can begin doing immediately. All the other steps that you will need will come along for you as you are ready for them. Your own Internal Guidance System will help you get there because you’ve engaged that final remedy for yourself, you’ve made the call. Inside all of us is that next shift waiting for us to choose. So, say it! “I’ve Got Nothing Left to Prove - So Let’s Go!”

It’s a difficult task this one that I’m now offering, by asserting that 5D Consciousness is superior to 3D Consciousness which is our current dominant state, now moving aside, as this incoming new level keeps emerging. Looking long term optimistically, 5D Consciousness seems to land somewhere in a future so prosperous, it has been suggested, one can only imagine. But the flight from 3D to 5D seems enormous at present, and for some it seems entirely contradictory and not even possible. But for many who now identify as Lightworkers, Starseeds and Way-showers 5D is already here, and is being readily expressed by these Soul Searching groups every day. In my last article here, I referred to them as The Army of Light.

How I Receive

I’ve offered several such proponent views on my Substack so far, but I’ve failed to mention how they do arrive for me. Simply put, I “receive” them. No, I do not meditate anymore, or Om m m m myself away into some bliss, I just Listen and then Feel and what wants to be put forward. As it ‘arises’ at that ‘feeling level’ and I write them down. That initial ‘dump’ becomes the first draft which I then edit, and re-edit as I then pull it together in its final form. There is usually a theme emerging before I start, usually something has triggered a particular area of focus for me to concentrate on. In this case, an online friend asked if I could ask my Guidance to steer in this particular direction, and deal with the topics of 3D living and 5D Ascension into higher consciousness. This is in fact how so much of my work comes through. I call it “Inspiration” much as Writers of Old once did when referring to their “Muse.” I refer to my Higher Self as Guidance and as that “Muse” and have been doing so for over 30 years. If there is ever a demand for more depth on this subject I will gladly put together a Course or Programme to show people how to access that Depth for Themselves. That’s how I was taught way back when and I’ll gladly pass that on, if such a demand emerges.

Back to Our Topic

How can one imagine a 5D Consciousness from the perspective of a 3D environment. It seems blatantly impossible. But then so did many other Ascensions and Human Evolutions, if you prefer, that mankind has risen through, and also seemed totally out of reach as well. We can look back at those eras and wonder: “What were they thinking” during those times, the peoples of the earth, some 2,000 to 3,000 years ago? And yet here we are making that same argument for this newly emerging reality, that is now at our doorstep as our new future.

Those older cultures could not see what was next in terms of their evolution, like so many of our humans today, they too cannot see what something as bold as 5D Consciousness might hold for them. It is perhaps an arbitrary construct at first, granted; that seems to be totally unrealistic for many. Yet history has shown us that such shifts happen time and time again, as this one is happening right now. Such shifts do happen whether we like it or not, whether we believe it or not, and as has been the case with Every Evolutionary Step so far.

Ascension into 5D is actually already happening as we speak, for many folks, as mentioned above. But not everyone can feel it, or is expected to embrace it, in this immediate moment. Such movements happen in stages it would appear, and in layers as typical progress tends to move. And different groups arrive at this newly emerging plateau once their energies expand to a point that permits the new resonance to take hold. That is currently the story behind Ascension right now and is happening for varying groups of humanity as we speak.

A Clue Worth Noting

Here’s a simple clue that cannot be denied. The Schumann Resonance, a measurement of the earth’s operating frequency, was identified and measured to be 7.83 hertz back in 1952. It was also determined that this frequency had been rock steady for the planet for hundreds of years already, and therefore was expected to simply remain so. But around 2012 the Schumann Resonance measurement began to spike into the 20 hertz, 30 hertz ranges and even much higher sometimes, topping the 100 hertz mark in several instances in the years since. So what does that mean? Well, critics will say “nothing much.” But those actually paying attention, Scientists, Philosophers and Spiritualists, all assert that “humanity is getting an upgrade - Again!” As has happened over and over again throughout our human history. This is no longer simple far fetched speculation, it is now a Measured Fact!

A Comparison Might Help

Alright, let’s take a breath and look at this from another angle. Let’s look at the evolution of our automobiles for example. They have survived the test of time and evolved into the super luxury, highly technical, amazing vehicles of our current era, with all this evolution happening in under 100 years! Most of us, as children, could not imagine the vehicles of today. And if these were suggested to us back then, we would have screamed “impossible!” Yet here they are, as so many things always show up on the evolutionary scale, beyond what we could ever imagine or comprehend just a few decades back. Our world is changing, and Us with it. Well, it is certainly true for our cars at least! Our Human History is full of such examples, and as always happens ‘after the fact’ such shifts are now “irrefutable!”

Those of us who have a problem with 5D Ascension may or may not live to see it for themselves in the current incarnation. But regardless of the doubts, or any of the objections, it is happening nevertheless, just like it has over and over again in our surprisingly lengthy human evolutionary history. Well then, are there actually ways to initiate this particular effect for One’s Self? Yes there are! And they all involve Personal Growth through Self-Reflection as a foundational first step That One Has To Choose! This would include the understanding that the Higher Dimensions of One’s Self are at work, preparing the ground for this to happen for each of us at the individual level. As a footnote here, I get this message practically every day from my Higher Self as Guidance. Whatever I Choose to be Ready for Next is what then emerges. And again, this is the dimension of all our beings that we can have access to when We Are Ready. As already mentioned, I’ve been connected to and continuously receiving from, this Inner Source for over 30 years, a feature I share regularly with numerous cohorts in the Personal and Spiritual Growth fields.

Persons intentionally on those Personal and Spiritual Growth paths are ready for such occurrences, without knowing how they will come about. They are connecting with their Higher Dimension through their now ongoing commitment to Grow, by whatever means that may work for them at their individual level. And in every such case, that growth is usually characterized by Spiritual Development, as the only path forward in such tumultuous times such as these. And of course, to those on the periphery, looking at them with doubt and disbelief, these people are simply crazy, the traditional explanation for something misunderstood. Well, look back in human history and see how many times such judgements have been put forward, and then just as quickly, turned upside down with what then emerged - as promised!

Personal Evolution Has To Be Accepted

This evolutionary process is happening right now. And your acceptance of this fact is Not required for that fact to be actually so. But your agreement to have it be part of Your Life IS Required, to make it so for yourself. And the mind-flip adjustment that is necessary to see this is: “We Are Spiritual Beings Having a Physical Life Experience” and Not the other way around. We are Spiritual Beings, in a body, on this earth, which two thirds of this planet’s population understands to be just a matter of fact, including the many instances of previous incarnations as part of Spiritual Life and one’s ever growing Soul Resume.

Again, this is all happening now. Talk of 5D Consciousness is one thing, but living that accelerated path of Growth is a whole other matter. As mentioned earlier, that happens in stages, and for most of us Spiritual Incumbents, that happens over the course of our “chosen” personal growth experiences. Intellectual growth is one thing, but Spiritual growth is a whole other matter, with subtleties yet to be uncovered. One does not enter that realm until one makes the choice to embrace their Spiritual Nature as foundational to Who We Are As Souls hanging out here as Humans for now.

Again, we are Spiritual first and foremost, and human as a Chosen developmental experience. Yes, I said Chosen and Not as an after thought, because it’s Deliberate. And this is not to be taken lightly, but to be embraced as the necessary ladder one chooses to climb for one’s ever evolving personal growth. Again, Spirituality is The Leader, and until that is Acknowledged and Owned, those necessary steps toward 5D will remain elusive. And for a number of humans at these earliest of stages, may still seem to be impossible.

Remembering the “Biblical Fall”

But every generation of humans has been through this. The so-called Biblical Fall that humanity went through ages ago, was a Fall from Higher Level Consciousness, where prior, it was already understood that we were Spiritual Beings to begin with. After the Fall from that 5D level down to 3D, that connection was lost and humanity found itself in a world of opposites, of competition. this then included of course, fear of any group that didn’t look like Us. This predominant 3D dimension is riddled with issues that we would no longer have once we regain that higher perspective as our current momentum suggests we will. Until then, war, pestilence, competition, animosity, and us vs them, will remain as the dominant themes. Is it any wonder those now spiritually inclined want to move forward, actually back to where we were, consciously speaking, in that former 5D realm? Well, once again, every step before us Is A Choice We Have to Make.

Ascension for those Spiritually inclined, is the Visible next step, and emerges from the Heart Level. One’s incumbency toward this new realm becomes Official once We All Claim It! Only a Spiritual orientation can lead there, and that is happening for large groups of us humans as we speak. 5D Is Now Inevitable, just as the Cars of Today were inevitable when so very few of us could envision that reality back when. Evolution’s next step is here for all of us to claim. All it requires is our choosing!

“And Yes, Once Again, Here It Is!”

That will be the phrase used by many now as they formally step foward and into, that 5D environment. It is here, waiting, for When You/We Are Ready! You just have to step up and Choose to Connect with Your Own Higher Source as your Personal Gateway for Whatever is Next for You. Yes, there is always a choice, and only You can Make It!

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Is There an Army of Light?

I’ve been writing about topics like this for decades now. Recently I came across a Substack post from Everyday Mystic Theresa, offering the following introduction:

“Dear Ones, You are those who agreed to help usher in a higher consciousness upon the earth.

You are the brave souls who agreed to this incarnation—one that would take you through these tumultuous times.

You are not here by accident.
You are here because you chose to be.

Because your soul had something to offer to this shift in planetary consciousness.”

That’s what inspired me to revisit my inventory and pull out this particular post from at least two decades ago. Back then I was “receiving” so to speak, writing furiously what my Heart / Higher Self wanted recorded on a variety of topics, including this particular reference to “The Army of Light.” Theresa’s post encouraged me to dig out this material and to seriously consider reposting it here to see if it would resonate with people as her post has done for me. So, here it is, pretty much as originally laid out, with a series of followup pieces available if the interest is there.

Is There an Army in the House?

Our title for this piece - “Is there An Army in the House?” refers to the Army of Light I have often mentioned in previous writings. This is an army composed of Way-showers, Starseeds, Lightworkers and other identified groups where Spirituality and the onus of Ascension into 5D consciousness are being addressed. These groups can be found online, through Facebook, in their various guises, as would befit their general and, oftentimes novel, orientation.

From the cosmic viewpoint we see this collection of souls as The Army of Light, here to bring peace and prosperity to a world eager for change. This change would include moving away from the old status quo of warmongering and accumulation of wealth for the few at the expense of the many, into a new world of cooperative balance where sharing of resources equitably is the order of the day.

We’ve seen this type of track before in idealized organizations that have come and gone after a brief attempt at establishing themselves. As examples we can point to Communism and various stylized Democracies that have risen and fallen in their short-lived presence among the nations of the world. We are not following these examples here. Rather we are launching a new wave where consciousness rises into the ethers so to speak, and gives us a whole new perspective on what’s possible for humanity. We are talking about a broader frame of reference that takes us further into the realm of Cosmic Consciousness, the level where we know and live the fact that we are all One.

Note: Earlier, in the last century, a book titled “Cosmic Consciousness” by Dr. Richard Maurice Bucke was published addressing these effects. He analyzed the lives of various eminent individuals, such as Jesus of Nazareth, and showed how the totality of Consciousness and ensuing Oneness idea was historically visible going back Centuries, if not Millenia. I immediately became a fan and learned that Dr. Bucke was a prolific writer, who often associated with other great writers of his time, including Walt Whitman.

This rise in consciousness aims to take us out of 3D living into 5D living where all such things are possible, such as living in peace, sharing, protecting the planet, teaching, helping each other and practicing love. These are all part of the fabric of life, the very fabric we alluded to in our earliest of pieces gathered on this subject. We are talking about an accumulation of Cosmic Perspectives which have been cast here as Reflections on the “Now.”

We are back to that beginning point here because our perspective demands that the ‘fabric of life’ be recognized and honoured if one is to successfully climb that ladder into 5D consciousness where Ascension is leading us. Because 5D is a whole new perspective that does not allow for competition and war, these larger elements in life that have kept us divided and disconnected from our true Oneness. A change in consciousness is what’s necessary now, and that’s why we have titled these self-reflective pieces as Cosmic Perspectives.

This allows us to take a view from above, as if we were the creators of this place called Earth and its family of humans and other assorted life forms. If we are all One, as asserted here repeatedly, then we are engaged in a form of cooperation that honours the entire fabric of Life, of which we are a part, no exceptions. Even the insects and animals we may not like are an integral part of this fabric, since by definition, it includes all.

With the above in mind, we are healing the rifts that have separated us, artificially of course, as there never was, nor can there ever be, a rip in the fabric of life. Only thinking it makes it “seem” so. By definition, and in reality, the fabric is always whole. So we are looking for a way forward to help us achieve that level of understanding and appreciation, so we can settle into a new form of functioning called co-operation. This in itself is what meets the needs of all life forms existing here now.

From the cosmic perspective it seems ludicrous to conceive of separation in any form, since all are part of the same unified fabric. The artificial rifts that have been part of mankind’s experience for some time now are simply not true, since they are by definition - artificial. So we’re not creating something new here, we are simply ascending to a level of perspective where we can see for ourselves the validity of this tenet, that we are indeed all One. This is the cosmic perspective and the only one that holds truth.

Returning to that understanding is what Ascension is all about. And Ascension is only a redirection, or course correction if you prefer, from mankind’s Fall into lower consciousness that happened eons ago. We are simply reclaiming what was our original, and our truest perspective, the fact that we are part of a unified fabric and that we are all One.

Now, to get there from here, from the 3D world into 5D, requires work, the work that Lightworkers, Starseeds and Way-showers came here to perform, by correcting these deviations in personal evolution from the 3D sidetracks mankind has been on for some time. Again, these are the sidetracks that reinforced the notion of Separation, from one’s inherently Divine origins and connection to each other, to which we can readily assert is simply not possible given the One and totally Uniform Fabric of which we are all part. Remember the story of the Prodigal Son? He comes Home doesn’t he? And where is Home, but in our Heart-Felt Centre.

There’s no shortcut to this, to achieving this perspective. It requires the healing of all aberrations to the contrary. In simpler terms, we, each and every one of us, have to heal our emotional and feeling wounds that have kept us separate from each other, and from our Deepest Selves as well, as we come to understand what it means to be fully human.

We, the so-called Army of Light, are front and centre in these processes. We have become the hunters of relief and closure to these emotional wounds that have haunted humanity for generations. We today, are what I often refer to, as the Healing Generations. This includes our parents who started waking up to their true selves through self-reflection, to ourselves and our children who have pursued personal growth and healing even more vigorously with the plethora of self-help materials, programs and practices now available.

Now we, Ambassadors of Light, are starting to realize this is why we came here to Planet Earth. This is why we chose certain life experiences, which forced many of us to aggressively pursue the great variety of healing modalities now currently available. We were forced to self-reflect, to attend seminars, to join growth groups, to read, to put into practice what we learned for our own benefit, and as it turns out, to pass that on to those who started coming to us for help. We paved our way through this path to learn all that was necessary to help ourselves first, and then help others if that became our calling. But healing by far is what we came here to do.

And that’s where we are today, delivering all that we have learned through our own trials and tribulations, to help others find their way, just as we did when starting out, when we looked to those before us for help, guidance and direction. But more than that, we also came here to be Awakened, at this point in our journey, to the fact that we set all of this in motion before landing on this planet for our turn at the wheel. We are now at this very moment where the sound of “Waky Waky Sunshine” is now ringing in our ears, and stirring our Souls.

Now we are awakening to the realization that there is an Army of Light at work here in this sphere and We Are It! We are the Army of Light awakening to our collective mission. We are here to bring healing to all who are ready to receive and to help them find their way, just as we have, to that Source within, which is Divine. Yes, we are Divine, as hard as that is to conceive or accept, but the evidence is in and it lies our Hearts where we know all aspects of the truth of our being.

Take a breath now. I know that’s a lot to contemplate. Its a lot to consider and absorb, the truth of which only you can attest by checking with your Heart. You know who you are from the inside out, and your Heart, you have now learned, is what guides the way. That is the key to what we call Awakening - The Heart is the Instrument that comes alive and charts the way forward, into the next dimension.

We are the Army of Light and the next dimension is here. We are entering the land known as 5D. We are the 5th dimension of troops, comprising this Army of Light, which has now landed.

This is only a beginning, an awareness stage. We have to come to terms with that before moving further ahead. There will be many layers to our Awakening process, but with all we’ve said and done here, and are being laid out in these Cosmic Reflections, we are well on our way. And yes, there will be more material like this as we move along.

For now, consider this to be Stage One of our arrival into the Awareness that we came here for a Purpose, and that Purpose has brought us to this particular point. There’s more coming of course. But for now let us enjoy what we’ve achieved and celebrate our awakening process as it moves along and takes us to where we are going next.

We are the Fabric, and the Fabric is One!

The Fabric has a purpose, and we’ve only just begun!

Is there an Army in this here House?

You bet there is and it’s just waking up now!

Stay tuned!

My song messages are clear. They are always about Personal Growth, Healing Old Wounds, overcoming Trauma and celebrating our Deepest Self and yearnings. That “Little Wonder” we all have inside, that first showed up in my life recently, has been eagerly waiting to be reclaimed and unleashed to his/her full potential. That’s who I am. That’s what I feel inside. And that’s what this music is about. And now I want to see it soar to its full on professional capacity where messages of self- acceptance, self-love and self-expression can truly make their mark. My current audiences love what they hear and feel in the vibe. I want to see if there’s a bigger picture for what my music and I now have to offer. Here’s another example from my growing repertoire.

Cosmic Blues Cafe - Copyright: Maurice Turmel PhD- Dr Moe - 1998/2016

This song is about reaching deep inside and connecting with the Eternal that exists in us all. That part of us seeks to be known as we uncover who we are from the inside out, which is just another way of Getting to Know You at the Heartfelt Level.

1) There is a place inside of your heart Where you can open up and let it start

There is a place inside of you Where you can make your dreams come true

It’s called the Blues, baby You can hear it when we play

Let’s sing the Blues now, darling At the Cosmic Blues Cafe

2) I want you to see that outstretched hand Coming from Heaven, another land

Reaching for you and your soul made blue Reaching for you, that is true

It’s called the Blues, baby You can hear it every day

We play the Blues here, darling At the Cosmic Blues Cafe

BREAK: (cut time) SOLO: (long time)

3) Oh come on now, you know it inside I placed it for you, but you let it hide

I shook you a few times, before we lost touch Now I’m back baby, to soften you up

You are my Blues, sweetheart My lover, true as it is

And I am here for you my darling So, let’s make a wish

BREAK: (cut time)

Chorus Finale: (long time)

Come to the stars now We will show you the way

Reach for the stars, darling Come to the Cosmic Blues Cafe

Come to the stars now We will show you the way

Reach for the stars, darling Come to the Cosmic Blues Cafe

Ending: (cut time)

My Disaster with the Catholic Church - “Awakening to Your Deeper Self”

I was born into an environment where I had no say in the matter of religious adherence. It was a hellhole, had always been this way, and was circling around its 2,000th birthday at this point of my arrival. My parents were already indoctrinated, as were their parents, and the multitude of our ancestors going back perhaps a 1,000 years or so is my best guess.

There was no questioning this matter. These so-called “Saviours” had been installed eons ago and no one in our current demography was prepared to take them on. They didn’t know for example that our religion was not formed until some 300 or so years after Jesus’ death. They, the church authorities, were simply identified as “carriers of the truth” and that was that! Church on Sunday was mandatory, as were all of this religion’s other scripts, including definitions of Sin, its favoured tools of Guilt and Shame, and the scriptures that allegedly supported them. These scriptures in particular, were readily quoted and applied, as if they were undeniable truth. But they weren’t of course, and that is a whole other matter.

Indoctrination takes its own sweet time, as you subtly arrive in it, and as a child, you have no say at all. “This is reality! This is the truth! This is how we govern life! Pay attention and we’ll show you the way! Ignore us, or Heaven forbid, challenge us, and you’re going straight to Hell!” That’s the basic message of what I was born into, and what dictated the scope of my life for years to come. Reality, as their made up, and then declared foundation, was unquestionable. It just was! And I and my siblings, were born into this sphere and conditioned to accept all that they demanded, with our parents’ permission of course, since they were living the same script.

We were children, now leaning into this indoctrination quota, day by day, as our nun teachers paraded around in their daily garb, with the assignment of delivering the church’s truth. Their robes, dark and dreary, were designed to obscure everything but their smiling faces. Well, not smiling very often, but more likely, judging, as the severity of their intense looks would suggest. Pontification was the rule of the day. “We hold the truth and that’s that! Any questions? (- - - crickets - - -) Good! Then we’ll move on!” And that was the lesson every day.

Our Catholicism was imbued with cynicism and lies that we were not ever privy to discover. We had our own worlds to be concerned about and that involved chasing rainbows as they, our sacred teachers, defined our religious lessons. In essence, that was simply a way of saying - the whole thing they were delivering, was made up, and had nothing to do with world truth, only the religious view. Whatever they were delivering, making sense or not, was for you to accept, unequivocally, no questions asked! Because this religion was a rock.

This type of indoctrination was tantamount to tyranny, what we were being charged with to swallow whole. What we got was a crucifixion of ideas hammered into us by these pious robe-wearing matriarchs, who preached the religions’s approved version of God’s holy truth. Whatever they said had the label of “authenticity” attached, even though questioning would never be allowed. “Do not doubt! Do not think for yourself!” If they said it, then it had to be true! So we students marched along, in our own little world, now coloured by the concrete opinions of those who claimed to be religiously correct! Not knowing by any of us at the time, that whatever the nun teachers were forging, and then claiming justification for, was of their own making, and had to be adhered to. Today, this is called brainwashing!

There was no “Truth Central” here, only the macabre world of intentional design for the purposes of indoctrinating us into their so-called infallible system. When I started waking up in my twenties, I realized this was a Hoax, from beginning to end. All based on lies, manufactured half-truths and stolen references from ancient cultures gone by who had already invented half the stuff they were currently using. The fact that this religion was now nearly 2,000 years in the making added no measure of validity to support their claims. From the beginning, it was a hoax, designed to hook people into the newly evolving system, and take them prisoner, psychologically speaking, as a matter of course. Nothing more, nothing less! Lies upon carefully crafted lies, designed to subvert, to intimidate, and to abuse, so that no one would take the chance in refuting them.

That approach most certainly worked well for a long time. and an uneducated population was easily vulnerable to this heinously rigid approach since their perpetuation of lies had no obstacles in their way. “Why, these people read scriptures! Who were we to deny them?”

Well, criticism did come about, as soon as the education system began to lay bare all the false attributes they were claiming as truth, oh yes holy truths to be exact. Well the tide had begun to shift, and the perpetrators of religious nonsense were failing now, because people could read, and alternative views of sacred living were available for all to see and compare. This included challenges to these existing systems, based on truths and understandings coming from the realms of Psychoanalysis and Psychological theorists. Soon these religious Swamis were being exposed as the fools they actually were. The contradictions and “double binds”were everywhere. Reading, Writing and Arithmetic were available to all, and the more sensibly astute among the population began to see through religion’s nefarious ways. And they then alerted the rest of us as a matter of course. It soon became a horror show for the existing religious authorities, because they couldn’t keep up their pretence any longer, and their back-peddling dance began.

Daily, weekly, regularly, religious lies were being exposed. And this is going on to this day. Religion’s previously airtight demeanour was being laid bare. Their crimes against humanity, all across the planet, were being revealed, addressed, and presented for all to see. Hiding in the shadows of their growing disharmony and outright abuse was no longer an option. They were being exposed. And as populations grew with expanding information, this religion’s fake made-up stories came crashing to the ground. And that included the exposing all the criminal activities they had been practicing for centuries already.

Yes, religions, including Catholicism, were outright murderers! They were child abusers! They were thieves! They were most certainly abusers of their so-called truth! At this point in history they were and have become, the Emperor With No Clothes. Not even their Castles at the Vatican can hold them safe from scrutiny and challenge. Cultures around the world are demanding a return of stolen artifacts from their original sacred repositories. These groups no longer want their valid history to be subordinated by this “holier-than-thou” Autocracy. No more! The world has spoken. “You Are a Lie, and We Know It!”

So Now What? Well that is the question, isn’t it? Now what, indeed!

Now is a time for reflection, for truth and, for safety from religion’s aggressive features. They are done, as we are saved. Because their form of Grace required total Capitulation! While the modern form of Grace requires adherence to the laws of self-containment. We are all imbued with the Truth. We are all capable of accessing it, as it lies Within. The real Jesus (Aramaic Yeshua) said so: “The Kingdom is Within!” It is not out there, in their fake church. It is within each and every one of us. And that’s what we are about here in this series of Substack Posts. We are opening up to our inner truth, sharing that growing awareness with each other, accessing and celebrating our individuality and our Connection to the Divine, which we can also share in support of each other’s Personal and Spiritual Growth.

That’s our message here. That’s why I call this “Getting to Know You.” Because you are the Source of everything you need, spiritually speaking most assuredly. And religion, as we have known it, has been an Impediment to that inherent truth, an absolute obstacle So, open up your Hearts dear friends, and Get Ready to Know You from the inside out, because the Kingdom is Within and this Party is Just Getting Started!

A Poem: “Shutting the Door to Tyranny”

Say Goodbye to Religion forever Say Hello to your own Soul, Your own personal God connection, Because you are God, here to secure

That God identity, as it exists within You As your Heart sings Its Praises And lifts you up towards the Heavens Where you belong, of course

No more drudging along the Earth Plane Time to rise up, and take your bold step Just be who you are - Earth Angel! Here to serve and share As any good human could

Time to be brave, Sweet Soul And deliver that message you came to deliver Why? well of course, because - You are God too and you know it You have a purpose, it is here As you awaken to your Truth, within

No more wandering around or crying No more saying “Sorry” or whatever - Your Older Self felt compelled to do Because you didn’t know who you were

You are God and here you are Another day older, and ready to share That’s all - Just be You The You you can be Without pressure from others Without colouring your world With all their fake paint

Only Your Truth shall prevail As set in your Heart Centre It’s your turn to shine - it’s time to be you We are here for you, Your Angels Delight Just knock on Our Door, We are here - Ready when You Are, Oh yes indeed!

Note: For a more detailed view of my escape from Catholicism and everything I learned about harmful religion and how to heal from its abuses, you can check out my book on the subject: “Breaking the Spell of Religion & Healing the Trauma” available at Amazon in digital, print and audio formats:

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0D3LY3DJL

INTRODUCTION

We begin this piece by first taking a moment to properly set the stage. Victimhood is not necessarily a bad thing, as you can attest from news reports about innocent people being killed or badly hurt in war situations. As an example, we have another war going on at this very moment, and there are already victims of this conflict, as there always are when intentional violence is at hand. What is not necessarily so purposeful, and often turns into a different form of victimhood, is “feeling like a victim” whenever something doesn’t go our way in day to day life. That may seem contradictory to the process of understanding victimhood. Intentionally victimizing others by declaring war, always results in abuse and trauma. But “feeling like a victim” is pattern of identity, usually generated by early trauma events initially, but which then becomes a steadfast go-to whenever something doesn’t go as planned. We shall refer to this as the “Poor Me” cycle.

In this essay we are going to take on both sides of that equation and see where it takes us. What we want to see at the end is a path forward, out of “victimhood thinking,” which can become a primary identity residence. Being in an abusive situation, where you are being victimized, is essentially a place to escape from, to abandon, in order to physically cut it off. But “feeling like a victim” becomes a way of life, if it remains long after any initial trauma has ended. Such a pattern has now become a self-perpetuated condition resulting in the Victim Identity. And this is what needs to be addressed more formally, in order to finally Break that Victimhood Spell.

FALLING PREY TO VICTIMHOOD

Throughout our lives we can fall prey to victim experiences of many sorts. In childhood it comes to us through dysfunctional parenting, including violence, and/or, the many ways in which one is made to feel at fault for whatever one or the other of our parents may be feeling and or complaining about. Dysfunctional parents are always dumping on their children, and while doing so, they are then exhibiting their own now entrenched “poor me” identity. The constant repetition of such conditions becomes the roadmap to the “perpetual victim experience” that many individuals, introverts in particular, seem to fall prey to. The introvert is already oriented to feeling and absorbing whatever is going on around them. As they mature, they gravitate toward and easily become victim of such anomalies by virtue of their “feeling nature.” And most Introverts are also Empaths. To what extent they evolve that capacity, via exposure or self-will, can they then more easily become long-term feelers of Victimhood.

Introverts and empaths, being feelers to begin with, react to those feelings as they emerge, and absorb them as a form of developing identity. They are in touch with feelings from one moment to the next. They easily pick up on other’s feelings as well, and tend to move toward them to help placate the situation. Empaths and introverts can even become career specialists in these areas. They gravitate toward employment where their feeling nature can best be utilized, such as Front Line Workers in Healthcare, Nursing careers, Counselling services, or in the broader Social Services. It’s not always guaranteed to be like that for all empaths and introverts, but turns out to be very common among them. However, there is a class of individuals, non-introverts to be sure, who take a different turn. This group gravitates toward repeating patterns of Bullying, followed by Victimhood, and then flowing back and forth through these extremes all their lives. More on this later.

FEELERS BECOME HEALERS

In most cases, in terms of Helping, the Service Providers are usually Women, who dare to bridge the gap between what men tend to do, as doctors let’s say, and what patient’s also need in terms of emotional support and care. Look around and see for yourself. Most of these career areas are covered by women who’s more natural feeling tendency is to pick up on these needs and render supportive care. That doesn’t mean men do not occupy these roles as well, because they do. But usually, it’s in much smaller numbers. And equally, this does not necessarily mean that most women are empathic to begin with. Court cases in significant numbers will testify that a good number of women can be closed off emotionally, and engage in bullying tactics and violence as well.

Again, we are not implying that men can’t be empathic. They are in fact more present these days in significant numbers, as men’s “permission to feel” capacity gets spread around more broadly. But certainly still more common is the fact that men’s initial “life permission slips” do not typically include empathy or compassion, because such men are most often cast as “weak.” An unfair assessment to say the least, but still a common judgement in most parts of the world, holding on to the idea that men need to be tough. And that sadly, still means squashing feelings instead of owning them, rather than working through them to learn what they have to offer.

The world as we know it is now showing change in that regard. But this particular male oriented tendency still dominates in most cultures. Yes, it is shifting, even though still slowly at present. But having grown up in that ‘tilted environment’ where feeling is considered weak, has caused many men to be skeptical of trusting their emotions. Resistance still prevails when it comes to acknowledging the need to accept, express and work through categories of feeling, rather than just spouting off reactive anger, which is their very familiar go to. But that change is happening as we speak.

“FEELING LIKE A VICTIM”

In terms of Victimhood this tendency to denounce and reject “feelings” as “illogical” is still somewhat prevalent among men. And yes, it does show up with women as well, just not at the same levels. However, what we are talking about here is the Feeling of Victimhood, and how it is carried by both genders. It’s a matter of sheer Force in most cases, where the feeling of Victimhood persists, as a cause and effect reference, usually stemming from childhood. Because that’s where the damage is done initially, that sets the victim stage in to begin with. Self-centred parents, playing their own Victim card, indoctrinate their children into that faculty. They turn on the “poor me” tap whenever that suits them and vulnerable children try to give their parents what seems to be needed. Children don’t know that this is Not their job, they are simply trying to please mom or dad, and/or calm a situation down. This then becomes the juxtaposition of Force versus Empathy, where children tend to fall into one extreme or the other.

Children initially seem to be naturally empathic. Their whole world, in those early years, is a feeling state. Dysfunctional parents prey on this, inadvertently of course, to get their own “unmet” childhood needs met. They regularly express their own vulnerabilities through their cravings for notice and approval that they didn’t get growing up. Now they are unconsciously preying on their children to get those needs met, perpetuating their own inherited cycle of Victimhood onto the succeeding generation.

PROFESSIONAL VICTIM EXAMPLE

One of the best examples of perpetuated Victimhood across the generations is Donald Trump. He is a victim at all times, being abused by others regularly, or so he claims, especially when he doesn’t get what he selfishly wants. He demonstrates and perpetuates this effect in his own life by switching back and forth between Bullying and Being a Victim. He bullies for what he wants. He plays the “poor me” card when he doesn’t get it, not at all realizing that he has also taken on the role of “abusing himself.” His self-defeating patterns are regularly being recycled and make the news almost every day. Such a cycle can only be broken through Self-reflection, and the Donald seems to have no capacity for that in his apparently very limited inventory of so-called coping strategies.

The rest of us, initially prone to some version of this delusion, can ultimately Break that Spell by securing and adopting Self-reflection as a tool of choice. And then, by applying that emerging self-awareness to every circumstance where we may have felt unjustly slighted. As empaths though, most of us usually adopted the opposite in childhood, taking the blame for whatever was going on with our caregivers at the time. But now it becomes easier to see, that this repeating pattern can leave one perpetually ill affected by this initially unconscious choice. But that does comes to an end once the Self-reflection modality is first adopted and then fully engaged.

Career psychopathic personalities, such as Trump, typically never do any of this. Instead, they have chosen to believe in Power and Autocracy, while staying in the Land of Me, Me, Me! They want, and desperately need to dominate. And that addictive need to control is what sinks their ship most of the time. Because the world today is long past this form of shoddy childish performance, and is no longer tolerant of their perpetual “poor me” complaints. In regards to Trump, that is clearly in evidence every day, as the world reacts immediately to his most recent and regular guffaws!

BREAKING THE SPELL

Certainly by the time we individuals come into our adulthood, we are ultimately steering toward being responsible for ourselves. And by taking charge of our lives do we quickly learn, this is an absolute necessity for a healthy life. Breaking the Spell of Victimhood is the Call to Action, to literally dismantle that old self-harming mechanism that can hold us prisoner well into adulthood. That’s why trauma has to be dealt with, along the way if possible, or at least in our adult years, where tons of advantage are now present in terms of Self-Help, Personal Growth and assorted Therapeutic modalities. These tools are all readily available now. All that is required is the will to Take Charge of One’s Destiny. The old way of burying trauma and all forms of child abuse, actually leaves those negative experiences in charge of how we then deal with the world. That’s when the victim script is first written and then leads the way. What we are suggesting here is that any and all of those early abusive cycles can readily be broken. But one has to be willing to first first engage in self-reflection, and then step up and take charge, otherwise the earlier established pattern remains.

Well Not Anymore! That is finally over as soon as one chooses to remedy those early dilemmas, chooses to listen to their aching Heart, and chooses to feel that pain and finally expressing it, ever safely of course. This is called “Exercising Choice” in the matter of whatever comes next for each of us. By choosing sources of help, and by not wasting any more time, or energy, making excuses for those who dumped their victimhood upon us, do we actually move things along in our favour. We are in charge as soon as We Say So! And then the dismantling of that artificial determination of who and what we were as victims, begins to finally dissolve. And again, that’s because We Say So! Repeatedly! As long as it takes! No More! I’m Done!

Nonsense, pain and hurt cannot stand up to the scrutiny of Chosen Self-Determination. Once claimed, we are then in charge of our lives, and maybe for the very first time. Regardless, that old embedded self-defeating enemy is done. The artifice of Victimhood is dismantling, and we are Free to be who and what we are from our Heart Centre forward. No more Victim thinking. We are truly at Home with our now emerging Deepest Self, our Inner Core, our Soul Purpose if you like.

Because that is where we now belong, and from where we can Choose to share our lives. No more crazy old guilt, shame or other negative references, indoctrinated into us by dysfunctional parents, and also in many cases, by Abusive Religion. I’ve had Both in My Life! We are free to be what our Hearts urge us to be, through our own now Unadulterated Feelings. And then we soon realize, there is no greater reward than moving forward as only our Heart Centre can Inspire. That’s when We are our Truest Selves. And that’s when we can experience those deepest levels of inner joy and harmony. And that’s when We set the ground rules for who and what we are meant to be. Oh yes, once Our Hearts are now Pure and no longer in pain, They Can and Will choose Our Best Path Forward!

If you are an Introvert or Empath, burdened by what you still carry, just say No from this point forward. “I will only choose what is best for me, as determined by My Heart, and My Own unadulterated Feeling Nature. I now belong to Me!” Welcome Home Soldier! You are Now Finally Free!

Song: “Time to Be Free”

Introduction:

The following is a poem that has been with me for some time, nearly 3 decades now. It’s been published before in magazines oriented to such material and seems to resonate well with people going through major emotional upheavals at certain points in their lives. If you’ve been reading, or listening, to my posts so far, you’ll be aware that one of my frequent reminders to us all is that: Feeling is Healing. And by getting in touch with our deepest feelings do we underscore and reveal our unique purpose in life and what is Ours to unfold, as we dig deeper into the “who and what we are.” This is my purpose here once again, to reinforce that sentiment with a trip into Poetry Land which always underscores our emotional responses to life events and our feelings. In this case, healing our traumas, hurts and losses, whatever they were, leads to the uncovering of our Deepest Selves within that part of us that stands Tall and Brave revealing that full breadth of meaning lying in one’s Heart. Feeling is Healing, and that’s what this series of posts are about. Literally, this is Getting to Know You from the Inside Out!

Let Your Feelings Be Your Guide

Maurice Turmel PhD - AKA “Dr Moe”

The light of all eternity shines with me now

My feelings light up my life

How I find my way is determined by them

They illumine my path and show me who I am

When I was young, I felt so many things

Then came the day when I could not stand the pain

My world was chaos then, filled with sorrow and grief

So I closed up to protect that fragile Self within

Years would go by before I could open again

I was forced to by circumstances beyond my control

Life dealt me blows which I later recognized as my own

To awaken me to that sorrow deep within my Soul

Now I see how I closed that tender-hearted Self

How I froze in the face of my destiny

Troubles swirled around as a constant source of grief

And I fell to sleep out of fear

I worked hard to find my way back to the Light

To that place within where I could feel once again

There my Heart shone forth with a brave face

And shed light on all that I had concealed

I am awakening now to the deep void within

Where I’ve stored all those troubles and pain

I fight my way back to that centre once again

So I can come forth completely and be true

My life moves forward as of this day

When I committed to finding my true Self

I’ve engaged all manner of demons on this journey

To return to that Source deep inside

This is my gift to myself, my own holy Soul

To have, to hold and to behold

This Heart that bled is now healing its wounds

And can prosper again from what Life brings

“Move on,” you say to me. “Move on, my love

The Light wishes for us to do so”

And my Heart sings with the possibilities

So that “Yes” is the answer I can render with ease

My Heart is filled with Love and joy in this moment

Knowing that I am with you, my Soul

My feelings tell me you are there and always were

Till that sleep came over me earlier on

By awakening to your touch do I know You

And find my own truth there in your eyes

You show me through Love what my purpose can be

I am inspired by this attentive design

I am pleased we are here together, in this life

I am pleased that our love is so strong

For now I can reach you, my Sweet Soul Sublime

When you call to me from deep within my Heart

I have your answer Dear, and know this to be true

That you and I are forever to be born

In this life or another, we join with each other

And We Soar . . . And We Soar . . . And We Soar . . .